I come from the school of thought that all paths lead to God. My mom had always given me choice when it came to my personal spirituality. Mind you, I am sure from just being her daughter I was apt to be more open than the next cat, as she studied and challenged her own beliefs at a deafening pace. I was given the opportunity at very young age say 5 or 6, to pick and choose for myself. My mom understood the premium of free will and the strong importance it was to teach choice. I was offered a chance at going to Sunday School, I took it. A woman my Mom knew was taking me. That didn’t last very long, as the woman died, and it was on to the next spiritual endeavor. I was exposed to many philosophies Christianity primarily Protestant and Catholicism, Gnostic and Essene teachings, Eckankar, Transcendental Meditation, Yoga, Science of Mind, and later on via my brother and other channels, Zen and Tibetan philosophies in Buddhism, Hinduism and Jewish Kabbalah and Metaphysics.
Needless to say I had a lot to choose from. At times these opportunities of choice were a blessing and curse. Some years all I wanted was a institution or a set of rules to follow to make me feel more connected, to have a sense of belonging or even a feeling of righteousness. At times I was comforted knowing that the meat of God was always accessible within my soul and not by teachings that didn’t resonate truth for me. I now appreciate and feel connected more by being challenged by all my experiences and my personal quest into the feeling universe. For me, the dogma aspect of religions mask the truth behind the original teachings. I do think religion and institutions have their place but I do not think that God says one doorway or access point to me or I will delete you from my “Heart”. That doesn’t compute for me! My beliefs are based in trial and error, faith as well as, study. I am a believer that every piece of energy (the space in between the energy, as well) in the universe is a subsection of God, Consciousness or Source. Whatever label you want to put on it, it is All There Is. I am happy to know that I am a speckle in this wondrous outcrop of physical reality. This doesn’t take away the fact that I can manifest this energy into a personal God that I can talk to, cry to or even scream at. I also know that God in human experience can barely be fathomed in its Wholeness by the logical mind and I am ok not knowing everything at this moment. Well, at least some of the time 
I could go on and on but I will let this simmer.
Love and Hugs
Jen
February 19, 2008 – 7:16 am
Me and my roommate are interesting women. We find Discovery Channel cool, laugh at our interest in Mr. Darsey, and get into fits of cleaning and organization to make the garbage men angry. Tonight was no exception. Again by feeling the pull of our dream boards, light casting and the need to claim our future we came to a realization the clutter (distraction/energy traps) in our apartment is keeping the good chi from doing it’s thing. A mad dash to increase the flow of energy to our prosperity and love corners and really I am just so happy to have the crap moved and out of the house so I can enjoy the energy I am putting into my claimed space.
Odd unexpected thing happened last night. I channeled Jeanette’s Mom as I was talking to Jeanette. It was good but her mother was crying and a bit upset and sending love Jeanette’s way. A grounding crystal and a glass of water was needed so I could calm down after. Freakish but cool that the Universe thinks I am ready for this sort of thing. This doesn’t happen often I think it has happened once before with my Mom but with grief I could be making my Mom up in my head. I don’t think so but who can prove such things. This time I felt a black woman’s presence and my mom was clearly not black.
I, jokingly, worry I will channel Genghis Khan at the grocery store and he will want to get his tomatoes faster than everyone else and cause a scene. LOL Kind of reminds me of Bill and Ted’s excellent adventure when they were at the mall. Joan of Arc and aerobics. It could happen LOL and monkeys may fly out of my butt.
Love and Hugs
Jen
February 18, 2008 – 7:08 am
This week/week-end has been pretty fab I have to say. It’s a late hour the way I like it. It’s a good time for reflection without life’s noises.
This week was great- Status of greatness: I got awesome chocolates from a cute, intelligent and passionate guy, who I have a school girl crush on. It’s a bit romantic to get a Valentine from a person you have never met. Even though it was a contest of sorts -my wit, humor and sex appeal aided, I gather, to gaining the sweet gesture. Nice!!! I will have to get my Go Go Yubari outfit from the back of my closet to show off my school girl uniform.
I worked in the city this past week. Easy graphic job that paid nicely for 2 and a half days work. Not too shabby.
I went out with my roommate and good friend Jeanette, Friday night. We went to a local dance place to gt our dance on and celebrating our woman hood. Saw an old male acquaintance. He is very good-looking but he is a player to the 10th power. He tried kissing me, an ego boost maybe but he was not signaled for take off. I wasn’t flirting just being friendly - there is a difference! From me you can tell by the way I smile, my coyness, shyness or balls out straight forwardness whether or not I am interested. No signal from my part but c’est la vie. It’s a nice reminder that I am attractive even when I am not back into my hot pants yet. Soon, Soon!
Finally, even though with fuzzy head, I am looking toward my future. What I want and how I will attain it. A little help from the universe and some gusto. I can get bogged down by all the shiny in the world. This oyster of a world can have so much to do and be and love that I have to remember to prioritize as there are other days, weeks, months where the shiny can be claimed. Not all at once or all the time. Somethings are nice all at once. Hugging, kissing, and walking hand in hand with someone special while visiting a exotic place or going to Trader Joe’s. Reading a book while your honey just sitting reading his book an occasional sexy glance or oh my check this out moment. Other shiny things like getting a passport or working out can be solo and probably done not simultaneously. I am not walking to the nearest processing center which is about 250 miles away. LOL
So all in all, a great week of moving forward, catching some romance and gaining focus.
Love and Hugs
Jen
February 12, 2008 – 9:10 am
A while back say in 2005 I came across the personality tests that help you see your personality and help you find a career. It assessed me as INFPs (Healer Idealists). Over the years I have struggled with my need to be motherly to others, protect myself from self serving people, as well as, find meaningful work. In 2005 I took this test during a time of great stress. My job was sucking the life out of me and my mom left the the good earth from a stroke rather quickly. This left me unable to fully grasp what the assessments were speaking of. Now in 2008 and after more than one struggle to find peace in work I found my print-outs of those assessments. I am not trying to be all high and mighty however, others have told me that I always have been a person of great caring, compassion, and patience with other’s dramas, foibles, pain always feeling a connection to certain people that seemed to need… a person whom would listen, not judge and love or understand them in their time of need. All the times I would meet these people in grocery store lines, at work or a random calling for me to say a kind word to a stranger. A month or so ago I got a quick one question psychic reading about my path in life and he said without knowing me or my personality profile - If I find something to be passionate about in the healing arts, spiritual healing and such. That would be a great area to put my compassion to use. I am open to the possibility now that I may or may not do this for work as I do this so automatically with people but to get paid for it would be a bonus. Now my future goals include studying healing modalities like Reiki and other energy modalities as well as continuing my mothering love and counsel. Even at a party this week-end I was speaking to a girl I had never met said I should be a life coach.
PS • The Unity church has sparked my interest of late. They believe in the inclusion of all people and the power of your thinking. I think it is a another way to show people how to change their lives through positive affirmation of faith in God/Universal Source Energy, a name by any other name would smell as sweet, and how their thinking can help bring about profound changes in a person life.
I am moving toward the person I was born to be and I am loving it LOL
Other goals: to write more, to live more and to love more.
Love and Hugs
Jen
December 24, 2007 – 6:43 am
My aha moments sometimes come after a long study, an obsession of topic. This week has been no exception. Maybe in Sept or Oct a friend recommended the book, The 4-Hour Workweek by Tim Ferriss. I took the book out of the library. I like the 3 week deadline sometimes. I read it, it was good, very good. It was easy to understand. The guy behind the book seemed interesting but at that time the information decided to leave my brain. Moving again and all that entails and my own self (fear) stopped me from moving on any of the tips suggested. I am known to do a few nonsensical things and this, among many, was be one of them. This month I was loading up my Google Reader found Tim’s Blog. I started to be rekindled by the information in his blog and others in the lifehacker family. I also in a magical way also acquired a crush on Tim. I am generally haven’t been attracted to blond men but his devilish grin, great smile and intellect makes Tim uber attractive. I have been obsessing by finding all media, pictures and reading as much about him and his ideas as possible. Although in his book, Tim references how to find anyone you want to speak with in various ways, I myself am not going that route. I am chicken (Bahak, bad imitation of a chicken.) I am a little late for a bet he had with one of his friends that he couldn’t outsource dating. I think he finished his experiment 20 dates happier and proved his friend wrong. I think the scenario is like hiring an Indian or Malaysian Yenta. I am hopeful to meet him in 2008 but above all I want to thank Tim for his inspiration helping me find joy in the things I do with my time. The type of life we live, laughter with friends, personal adventures to grow and/or explore, and doing stuff you love at its core is what Tim’s ideals are about. Why do many of us put off what we enjoy or might enjoy in the hopes of experiencing it later in life. Especially and possibly when a whole lot of your juice or spark for living has dwindled. The fire still needs fuel people! Check out his book and don’t go stealing my man unless you are as awesome as he is. 
Here is an amazing short film by Mark Osborne that portrays the fear I have about letting my spark die. It is a beautiful 8 minutes that has made me shed a tear and has inspired me as well.
Love and Hugs
Jen
Today is National Meditation Day! All day and night many are joining in silent intention to create thought energy for more Peace, Love, Ecology and Positive Change in the world. It is so basic in metaphysics that we are all connected beyond the physical. We also know our thoughts and feelings create our physical reality. This is a perfect day to show the world that one doesn’t need swords to fight the negatives. All one needs, is Positive Affirming and Visualizing of what We/Ourselves desire. As we ask or affirm our intention we ask for the greatest and highest good for all so the Universe, God, Source, Mother and Father God can organize the intention for ITs highest purpose. Its nice to say for highest good cause if you weren’t precise in the asking it can help cover the bases that you can’t fathom or may miss.
Love and Hugs
Jennifer
Man am I am bad blogger? LOL I could say that I have been doing freelance graphic design in the meantime but that doesn’t quell the need for new or interesting information on spirituality or living life to its fullest.
OK it is a gorgeous day today, warm and sunny not a cloud in the sky. I am trying to be less fearful in terms of change I like the status quo waaaay to much. I am thinking about a lot of things to help force me out of my comfort zone. Maybe moving to a younger, active environment, maybe becoming a dance teacher, join the circus, well maybe not the last one unless I get to become very bendy and work for Cirque. I am getting off my butt and working out and learning how to cook real food. Learning to have discipline and setting goals and trying not to be afraid of failing, since its not the end of the world If I do. I am trying not to give up on my self just because it may be hard or I might be afraid. In what ways am I not living to my fullest potential? What if I did step out and did things that on the outside don’t scare me but on the inside make me want to be anti-social and never have to experience life or relationships or challenges. That’s all bunk cause I know that is the reason all of us are on Earth. We need to challenge oneself and be challenged by other people. I know I have grown but I could grow in a faster clip by changing it up a bit and really combating fears, prejudices, thoughts and feelings that are not serving me any longer. God wanted all of us to be in Love with the experience of knowing the IAM. Even Jesus had rough days, he asked for the burden to be taken from him but asked for God’s will to be done anyway. Buddha was in such anguish looking and experiencing suffering but followed the path ever humbly to reach a state where he would be connected to all things that wasn’t an easy road. These great teachers among others took baby and giant leaps toward living their lives. They are extraordinary examples. We can be like them if we Let Go, Let God and move past irrational fear and experience life to the fullest.
I am forward on making changes. I hope others challenge me to make sure I am continue to move and grow. Sometimes a good push or kick in the butt is what a lady needs!
Love and Hugs
Jen
I have struggled with my weight from the time I was in 5th or 6th grade. I guess I was 11 or 12 as puberty was rearing its ugly head. I noticed I had a problem in 6th grade. During much of my childhood there was a lot of instability, countless moves, poverty and a short time being homeless. When me and my Mom landed where my 20 year old brother was living I learned to cope with the constant changes with food. I would tell myself that I could eat a whole bag of BBQ potato chips without gaining weight. Needless to say I was lying to myself. As I got older I never really put together the idea that I was eating for comfort, to satiate stability, to push down pain, anger, or sadness. It is amazing when you aren’t being truthful to yourself how much can slip away from you in your life. In high school, after I met some very active older friends I lost quite a lot of weight. I became thinner and maybe a tad healthier however MickyD’s after a night of dancing doesn’t seem healthy now! LOL
I have made excuses and with not dealing with myself and my emotions from the past I still continue to struggle with getting to a healthy state of being in mind and body. I am doing better in the mental health department but the body, old patterns and making the final decision to be healthy is still an on going process. I am a work in progress that is for sure! I found a blog today that was inspiring to me. It is called Secrets of a Former Fat Girl.
It is about a real woman who lost 70lbs and kept it off for more than 20 years. She realized it wasn’t just about what she ate or how much she exercised, even though that was a huge part. It was about breaking through fear of change, getting out of her comfort zone, changing emotional habits and recognizing the healing she needed to do within herself.
To me this is true spiritual growth, being able to move out of ones comfort zone into healing of personal fears, judgments and behaviors. I urge anyone who feels unhealthy in body to check out her blog and to check in with yourself to see how you deal with your emotions. It could be any way you self medicate-cigarettes, food, drugs, alcohol, starvation and many others. We all can learn to love ourselves more by being more thoughtful on why we do what we do and learning to take baby steps towards any goal we chose.
I wish you all love, success and support in all the areas of your life.
Love and Hugs,
Jennifer
I read that humor raises the energy or vibrations of people. However, humor that hurts or is sarcastic does not. It is funny, I am not normally sarcastic but at times I have been known to throw a sarcastic dagger now and again. Usually I realize that sometimes it is not taken lightly and/or misinterpreted or I did feel a certain way about a person and maybe wanted to dig at them in a humorous way. My aim is to make my humor less abrasive and more light and silly. Kids usually don’t do sarcasm but they are hilarious little people anyway. I hope to make you smile and laugh along this journey of ours.
Love and Hugs,
Jennifer
Full article is from the Orlando Sentinel.
I am starting off by stating at one time I was a full fledged, go to church every Sunday Catholic for a good time in my late teens into my early twenties. I still have a love of Rosary Beads, Jesus, pomp and circumstance and frankincense. I however, for many sociological, moral, and personal reasons don’t believe in the dogma of the Church. So when I read this article about how the Pope wants the teaching of limbo to include the hope that God will give special dispensation for unbaptized babies going to hell. I wanted to laugh and Praise the Lord for real.
Additionally in the article the Rev. Richard McBrien, professor of theology at the University of Notre Dame, states “….we’re left with only one option, namely, that everyone is born in the state of grace.”
Finally someone who speaks my language! My personal belief is that we are all apart of God, the Spirit or soul is in direct connection to God, Source, All That Is, The Universe ect, all of the time… To think God would throw anyone away especially, babies is another way to make people believe in an Unloving God and the connection to said is gone. To feel that for a simple thing like lack of baptism could keep one from God’s love is absurd. The ego and ideas of self disapproval, unworthiness and just plain false information separates us from God and feelings of Unconditional Love that is in constant flow to everyone all the time. Many just haven’t tuned in or the haven’t let go of old conditioning.
The world would be a calmer and more peaceful and cooperative place if everyone KNEW and BELIEVED in Unconditional Love.
Think of the love you would show yourself and others if that channel was clear. Wouldn’t you treat your body better? Wouldn’t you say things more sweetly? Wouldn’t you we more grateful and want to express Godness and Goodness everyday? Wouldn’t you have faith in the process and journey of living?
I hope everyone gives themselves a Big Hug and have learned that God Truly Loves You. The energy of the Highest Vibration is Love and by being loving and compassionate to everyone and everything you are loving God and raising the vibration in the world.
Love and Hugs
Jennifer
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