I am an over thinker, not necessarily worrier but I think till the cows, chickens and horses come home. Habitually not always with constructive thoughts. I am also an emotional absorber, an intuitive and generally emotional. I cry at movies, puppies being hurt and cry when I empathize which is all to often. I am also stoic at times as if to protect myself from feeling. For example when I am problem solving, or if I have to much on my plate as if I can’t be concerned with emotions when I need to pay my rent. I will let off steam by crying but or getting angry at myself or an object. Damn you chair, I kill you! LOL I was speaking to a friend recently and it hit me that I still have stuff that I need to deal with. LOL A shocker right?!! I am still human and breathing. LOL Sometimes its easy to forget to check in with myself and ask how am I doing, are those feelings my feelings or are they someone else’s, can I do better next time without the negative self talk?
How do I not go crazy? Sometimes I let the crazy out. I will drive around in my car and scream. Sometimes I dance out my issues or just give myself ME time to cry, think, or just BE! That can be challenging with life and people in it drawing attention away from myself. It is so hard for someone like myself who thrive when people need me. I know it is never selfish to take ME time. Without it one can continue to be lost within themselves and then happiness is always elusive.
Happy Birthday to ME!
On the eve of my 31st birthday I am happy with how far I have come as a human, mistakes and all. I know I have many things I want to do and become and why not start some of them this year. I know for sure my 2008 will include more ME time for myself, even if it’s 10 minutes more a day. Nothing so drastic as everyone in my phone will be deleted. (Sorry friends I will see you when I am done with ME time.) LOL By making my needs important and tuning into my higher self and my ego self so I can give more of who I really am to my loved ones and to life as a whole.
Much love and hugs,
Jen
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