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Author Archives: Jennifer

Living la vida loca! & The art of low expectations.

Well my crazy life is wonderful. I feel that I don’t always fit in, I am a bit off kilter and silly but am I friends with everybody, go figure. My roomie Jeanette*, Kirsten and I went to a goth/electronic/80’s/industrial club this past week-end. As always no matter where I go I [...]

Disapointment: My own best torture device

Disappointment has been one of my soul lessons and personal challenges. In the past, disappointment and feelings that I chose to feel from such experiences lead to massive pain, stalemate and a massive case of victim mentality. Growing up I was a hippy child in a sense; no rules, no challenges to be [...]

Hard work! What is it good for?

Well, well, little miss I hate doing anything that expends energy. Speaking to myself of course. I used to be so efficient (umm lazy), so much so that when I went to take in the laundry from the laundromat I would nearly kill myself my carrying two 30 lbs bags up the stairs just [...]

Depression: The Final Frontier to Freedom

My life is a complete blessing even during the times that totally suck. My thanksgiving has been a process. My previous life, as I would call it, was one without always being thankful for the hard and the ugly. I am generally optimistic but when I have had major depressive episodes I can’t say that [...]

Absurity hahahahaha!

IT feels so good with bread and furry animals. Wait, she sounds a little too excited maybe she is saying being alive feels good. Who knows? L’Chaim!

Thanks Hera for the “times, similar to the boat times”
Love and Hugs,
Jen

I promise to live more . . .

Next time I will have a lighter topic but I was floored moments ago as my friend on myspace and his fascination with death and my own morbid curiosity about a story on the gardian.co.uk about Life before Death called to me. The fact my mom has been “dead” for 3 years this summer brought [...]

Stability tada!

Stability is funny. I look at stability as something one makes for themselves with the people and things they surround themselves with. My own journey to stability has been a process. My childhood was riddled with endless moves, I mean seriously, 18 times before my 18th birthday and I was no Army Brat. I had [...]

What if we Loved ourselves as much as the Divine Loved us?

The Divine, Source, God, The Universe, The highest form of energy in existence, Love are all my definitions of God. Bigger than everything that humans can imagine or fathom. I know that God loves everything ever created, larger like a Universe and smaller than a quarks and leptons for all those physics lovers. Love as [...]

Perfectionism is the devil

I say this for a few reasons. It’s not because I believe in a boogie man figure whom pushes me to perfectionism or makes me think I am fat, lazy and a bad person. Personally I don’t believe that blaming outside forces is a good use of my God energy. In addition this blaming puts [...]

Laugh, Cry, & How to not go crazy in this reality.

I am an over thinker, not necessarily worrier but I think till the cows, chickens and horses come home. Habitually not always with constructive thoughts. I am also an emotional absorber, an intuitive and generally emotional. I cry at movies, puppies being hurt and cry when I empathize which is all to often. I am [...]