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Author Archives: Jennifer

Smokers are some of the most friendly people!

I don’t say this with sarcasm or with a Harvey Fierstein husky voice. I have never been a smoker. I was around it enough with my Mother. She even smoked when I was in her womb. She swore that if she didn’t I would have been a 10 lb. baby. I came out about 7 [...]

Noticed much?

Only one person has ever told me he loved me and then a week or so later he broke up with me. Does that count? LOL It was long ago and it could be troubling if I didn’t think that I was the cat’s pajamas. I have loved or been infatuated a few times but [...]

Cha-cha changes and the many faces of Jen in grey.

It’s amazing how time flies. I remember when I was in high school wanting to marry, my then love, and have like 6 kids and saw the world very black and white. Then I grew older and slightly more grey etched into my view when more and more people (including me, much to my dismay) [...]

Self preservation and the art of vulnerability

Most of us have the instinct of fight or flight. We come with a built in system if things aren’t feeling too good we want to run away in case some tiger will eat us. When it comes to human relationships this instinct comes out when we are in super state of joy, insecurity, anger, [...]

Giddy over Neil, Amanda, and past bringing me into present

I love how interesting people or people whom I find interesting (which is everyone) get together in magical ways to create or add pizazz to my day. I am a fan of Neil Gaiman. I was haphazardly introduced to The Sandman when visiting my (ex-boy then friend at RPI) where very cool architecture students would [...]

Solar Destiny

This week-end the stars and life has got me really creative, in various moods & emotions and thinking about what destiny has in store for me. I have a  dualistic belief that somethings in your life are pre-destined and some things are of choice. Maybe depending on the day, it may all seem very self [...]

Astrology-Mapping of our past, present, and future

How do the stars effect our present life? Well in simplified terms there are certain sparks, interests, life goals as well inclinations on talents, things to grow and learn from themes by reading your natal chart. By studying a chart similar to mine you can see where someone’s focus lies based on positions of planets [...]

Randy Pausch, an extrodinary man has passed today.

Good-bye to one of the sweetest souls, Randy Pausch! Many may know him from his last lecture, this wonderful computer nerd who has touched so many has died today of complications from Pancreatic Cancer. Even though I never met Mr. Pausch in person, I think all of us were touched by the self-less devotion to [...]

Too Much Love of My Own Pain

I think I repeat patterns for many reasons.

Habit of not working hard, like easy roads with clear outcomes.
Nearly masochistic enjoyment when my heart does the same things over and over again to hurt myself.
Archetypes that are innumerable and help me be the clown, wounded child and lonely hearts club member to name but a few [...]

My new romance with the Bus!

Since having to sell my car due to unemployment I have re-entered the world a walker and public transportation junkie! I hope to save money to buy a folding bike so when I get work I can take the bus/train and can commute the rest of the way if the location is far from the [...]