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		<title>My Random Observation While At The Local Watering Hole</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 24 Nov 2011 04:45:47 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I was at Starbucks today to write, read and get my usual drug and while there I was socializing with another customer and her little girl who was getting a treat from Starbucks and just came back from the salon cause she had a great report card. I also socialized with a Barista cause he [...]]]></description>
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<p><span>I was at Starbucks today to write, read and get my usual drug and while there I was socializing with another customer and her little girl who was getting a treat from Starbucks and just came back from the salon cause she had a great report card. I also socialized with a <span>Barista</span> cause he look like he was gonna cry when he saw the line that was not yet on his drink making side. I realized this socializing or general mass need for coffee was like various species at a watering hole in the Serengeti. Not necessarily all would get along or would normally meet in the real world we all get to be together in NATURE so to speak our modern day nature like malls, grocery stores and coffee shops. Its a way we get our needs filled of being around others but in a non threatening way. Also a way to bond with others I am not sure the lion and the elephant are bonding but at Starbucks there is some common goal or commiserating. Like when many will wait online on Black Friday there is a sense of camaraderie that you can not find in the same way online. We as humans even if slight interaction occurs need a community or group we feel connected to even if its on the peripheral. Hence, the mass love of Apple products or Starbucks or <span>Dunkin</span>&#8216; Donuts. These are ways we feel like we are together. In a sense maybe there is some of this in the Occupy Movement and like all of us that go home after something we feel apart of we feel we want something to bring us together again. Not like we want catastrophe or natural disasters but we almost crave that community after then when its all over we feel a bit empty or less than and need a meet-up, book club, mommy and me groups to make us feel we belong to something bigger than ourselves.</span><br />
Here&#8217;s to making a concerted effort to come together in fun, love, and coffee if it serves our well-being.</p>
<p><span>Much love, hugs, and many thanks the <span>Pre</span>-Thanksgiving Day!</span><br />
Jen</p>
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		<title>Healing is Eminent When You Get Out of Lazy Town!</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 17 Nov 2011 04:46:41 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Ok I mock but I am also serious. Healing on an emotional level is never easy and rarely overnight but just like loosing weight it takes, time and effort and a desire to let go of baggage. An old story or a story you reminded yourself consistently like being poor. Or one you are just [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div id="attachment_380" class="wp-caption aligncenter" style="width: 310px"><a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/11/4110421350_99a8925d04_o.jpg"><img class="size-medium wp-image-380" title="Art of Healing" src="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/11/4110421350_99a8925d04_o-300x290.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="290" /></a><p class="wp-caption-text">by h.koppdelaney</p></div>
<p>Ok I mock but I am also serious. Healing on an emotional level is never easy and rarely overnight but just like loosing weight it takes, time and effort and a desire to let go of baggage. An old story or a story you reminded yourself consistently like being poor. Or one you are just starting to remember abuse takes more than ninja moves to concur. But I found in my self the major turning point in healing is realizing that just being here and alive *poke poke* I am here that survival of anything challenging that we go through took strength, maybe determination, an ability to laugh, cry, and get up the next day.<br />
Not to be simplistic but after a certain point a person can not be helped to poo for themselves. Well minus heavy medical machinery. The point is, at a certain point of an circumstance even if you have family or friends they can&#8217;t give you the will or the desire for getting through it. You have to do it yourself. Mind you wanting to be there for them or  your love and hope can help get you to survive a plane crash, kidnapping ,or abuse but you are the one that pulls your through out the other side. Your inner strength (God?) or your highest self has a purpose to live and live brightly after any experience where pain was the default setting.</p>
<p>No cliches just pure questioning after you have survived -What is next for you tough one? Who can you become now that you survived bullies, losing your job, or a parent with an overbearing nature? Well with your spirit becoming whole and complete again you can accomplish anything you are willing to work hard for and deem worthy of your devotion of time and love.</p>
<p>Really what else is there to life?<br />
Love and Hugs,<br />
Jen</p>
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		<title>The Blessing of a Crisis</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 04 May 2011 01:35:30 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Pulling my hair out&#8230;Thanks dearbarbie A million and one blessings and such! What? Yes I said it even though I am in amidst of a crisis there is blessings to be found. My particular crisis details are not so important as the lesson of the crisis. I have been feeling anxious, unsettled, crazed for concrete [...]]]></description>
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<h2>A million and one blessings and such!</h2>
<p>What? Yes I said it even though I am in amidst of a crisis there is blessings to be found.</p>
<p>My particular crisis details are not so important as the lesson of the crisis. I have been feeling anxious, unsettled, crazed for concrete confirmation and proof that my life will be OK. As an intuitive and know-er of things as such, I know it doesn&#8217;t matter what happens in the physical world as it is all for the good for the whole even if it doesn&#8217;t look like it..However, my ego, the thing that is supposed to protect the body is scared!</p>
<p>During this crisis I have learned a few things about myself.</p>
<ol>
<li>I am a caretaker to a fault where I do not take care of myself before others&#8230;I am starting to work on this nugget of truth at Co-Dependence Anonymous meetings. My goodness there really is so much to learn about how to have healthy relationships with everyone.</li>
<li>As much as I may espouse in the goodness, affirmative prayer, and awesomeness of the Universe and God I don&#8217;t always live in faith. I whine and act fearful and complain on occasion. Sometimes I feel unworthy and unacceptable of gifts in strange or normal wrapping paper.</li>
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<p>Today I was feeling static and yucky all in my head with worry and problems. I took a bit of meditation time to tap into the awesome God energies and listening to what they had to say as well as listening to <a title="Hay House Radio" href="http://www.hayhouseradio.com" target="_blank">Hay House Radio</a> and also <a title="Marie Forleo is the Shiznit!" href="http://www.marieforleo.com" target="_blank">Marie Forleo</a>. Gratitude is everything. Being grateful for the yucky stuff as well as recognizing even what may seem insignificant blessings. After I focused on being grateful for the lessons being shown though my crisis my energy shifted immediately. Not only did the static, anxious, worry go away I have a new appreciation for the gifts that I am being given. I know really hard t do when you are panicking when you have no permanent place to stay, no job so forth. I am there right now with my Brothas&#8217; and Sistas&#8217;. For example this time in my life I am called to have understanding and compassion for those feeling troubled and have a block of moving forward due to fear.. A recognition that this particular lesson won&#8217;t be lost as I am finally doing things to take care of myself as not to put myself in this situation again. This time also shows me to have faith even if by some act of God (natural disaster or karma down the pike) I know I am (We all Are!) Divinely guided, protected, and loved even in the worst times. This is a blessed time. Maybe in your own personal issues you too can claim with confience a new realtionship with God as you see IT! Whether you commune with nature, Love Jesus, Allah, or you want to call IT Bob.. the name doesn&#8217;t matter, it matters that you open the floodgates of your heart to know you are an infinite vessil for love to come and express ITSELF into the world. How you choose take the yucky stuff and transform it is how the Good stuff arrives and thrives.</p>
<p>So today I say Thanks You GOD for the lesson. Thank You for my crisis ever painful it is and Thank You for always being my constant companion.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>You order is ready now! How the Universe designs your life!</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 10 Mar 2011 18:03:24 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Yesterday picking up my friend&#8217;s kids up from school we went to that Mc place for some food. I know, terrible aren&#8217;t I, I don&#8217;t eat it anymore but they requested it. We get to the board and the girls give me their order. L wants chocolate milk then wants regular milk. She finally says [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div id="attachment_276" class="wp-caption alignleft" style="width: 235px"><a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/3037329863_eebc146073_o.jpg"><img class="size-medium wp-image-276" title="3037329863_eebc146073_o" src="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/3037329863_eebc146073_o-225x300.jpg" alt="" width="225" height="300" /></a><p class="wp-caption-text">Thanks d.billy!</p></div>
<p>Yesterday picking up my friend&#8217;s kids up from school we went to that Mc place for some food. I know, terrible aren&#8217;t I, I don&#8217;t eat it anymore but they requested it. We get to the board and the girls give me their order.  L wants chocolate milk then wants regular milk. She finally says regular milk and our order is finished at the speaker box. 10 seconds later as I am driving to the pick up window I hear crying. I asked &#8220;Whats wrong?&#8221; L says she now wants chocolate milk. I told her that I already ordered regular milk and said she has to be clear of what she wants before the end our order not after. I told her I would ask if they would give us chocolate milk but she can&#8217;t get upset if they can&#8217;t make the change for her so late in the game. Thankfully the cashier gave us her chocolate milk and all was right in the world again.</p>
<p>This experience reminded me on how I ask for things from the Universe and now completely understand why they don&#8217;t come to me or if they do but I get weird confused version. Being very clear about what I truly want has always be a challenge. I experience the world rather quickly and I can get side tracked or attracted to shinny without any steadfast discipline or value system behind my intentions or thoughts when it comes to my personal long term goals. I have general values but none I rely on to gauge whether I truly want something or not. This is true for many people who ask God or the Universe to answer their prayers or dreams. Clarity and intention are a key component on attracting what you desire. This is true for relationships, money, work, health, spirituality and so on.</p>
<p>Are you clear on what you really want your life to feel, be, and look like?</p>
<p>If you are not satisfied in a particular area check out how it feels so you can examine it to determine if you are sending out thoughts and vibrations that may be getting lost in translation or confusion. For example, I have been saying for years I want to lose weight. During some of that time I even have gained even more weight. Not really what I was asking for Universe. *hum* Am I really kidding myself on this desire? In part yes&#8230;Why? Well I am conflicted by so many food options Raw, Vegan, Low Carb ect. I chose to exercise on a whim not with planned action and on top of that I am a tad lazy. I&#8217;m tired, I don&#8217;t wanna prepare food and all that jazz. Whine! Whine! My desire to be healthy and thinner were not always congruent with my actions and what I really wanted. I could go into the psychological about why I haven&#8217;t lost weight,  but in terms of our purpose about attracting our desires some where deep down I have blocks to losing weight. Hence with every DVD and food plan available to me I still have not FULLY Chosen to lose weight. This example can be used to see the truth behind not getting what you want for romance and career and more as well.</p>
<p>Once choice is fully engaged the universe give us infinite assistance in every way imaginable to achieve our goals. Bumps in the road happen due to soul lessons and/or varying stages of intention but You Can Have, Be, and Feel anyway you want to but that choice has to come from you.  Isn&#8217;t Free Will the best!  :)</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>Building the Faith Muscle</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 07 Mar 2011 18:54:38 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Anyone who knows me knows that exercise where I know I am exercising is my least favorite activity in the world. I much prefer dancing, hiking, kyacking, or walking with friends than to be lifting my kettle bell or weights. This to the dismay of my body is the reason my muscles are partially defined [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div id="attachment_254" class="wp-caption alignleft" style="width: 310px"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/foxtongue/84610477/lightbox/photos/foxtongue/84610477/"><img class="size-medium wp-image-254" title="84610477_2863212231_o" src="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/84610477_2863212231_o-300x175.jpg" alt="" width="300" height="175" /></a><p class="wp-caption-text">Thanks to Foxtongue for showing his muscle!</p></div>
<p>Anyone who knows me knows that exercise where I know I am exercising is my least favorite activity in the world. I much prefer dancing, hiking, kyacking, or walking with friends than to be lifting my kettle bell or weights. This to the dismay of my body is the reason my muscles are partially defined under a nice hibernation suit. I joke but a muscle that use on a constant basis is my FAITH Muscle. As and intuitive its imperative that what I know to be spiritual and helpful information is not lost in the stactic of my mind like chores, worry, blank stares and who will the Mother on How I Met Your Mother.</p>
<p>Many people really don&#8217;t have a solid perspective on faith or they are of the mindset if they see it than maybe they can believe it for certain for now.</p>
<p>One of my jobs, besides being a dancing queen, is to really show people that their internal guidance system can show them how to build faith in positive outcomes and if so inclined that an intelligent universal source is always with you and can be accessed at anytime.</p>
<p>A quick practice of building faith is to think of a time when you knew in your gut that something felt very right or very wrong. Write that down&#8230;then check to see what route you took that time if you took directions from fear or worry or took a new route. For example, recently my guides were nudging me to take my car to the mechanic. I knew I had to bring it to the shop but I keep putting it off. Well on Valentines Day it broke down completely random event of a timing belt..I didn&#8217;t see that coming I thought my axle rod thingy was the need. I didn&#8217;t follow the pull to take it in sooner because of earth woes, money worry and what if I fix it and it needs more. Blah Blah Blah we all do this. I did have it fixed to minimum road survivability and took the lesson again to trust my gut, guides and have faith that the information being received isn&#8217;t random but helpful if taken seriously.</p>
<p>Their is also this bigger idea, Faith in Source, God, or whatever you want to call this energy. I may have been born with the God Gene so maybe I have a built in system for acknowledging the invisible but I think when a person focuses on taking the positive from experiences, having gratitude and keeping an open mind a Divine Intelligence doesn&#8217;t seem very far fetched. Especially when testing manifesting goals and seeing positive outcomes. I am not here to say yes there is or is not a big bearded guy in the sky but I do feel that the study of the universe in quantum physics can show that something is very intelligent or something designed the universe in a creative way. Or maybe I just have build enough of my faith muscle to just know it is so anyway.</p>
<p>How are ways you build or have faith? Please post we would love to hear from you.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>30-Day Commitment&#8230;No not the Lindsay Lohan kind!</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 29 Oct 2010 03:12:32 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I found a great blog that resonated with me on working on myself it is called Secrets of Her Success and in it the  author Darcy Volden Hoag wrote about a personal experiment about making a 30-Day Commitment to herself. Her journey of commitment was to quell procrastination and push through fear. This is currently really inspiring for [...]]]></description>
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<p>I found a great blog that resonated with me on working on myself it is called <a title="Secrets of her success" href="http://secretsofhersuccess.com" target="_blank">Secrets of Her Success</a> and in it the  author Darcy Volden Hoag wrote about a personal experiment about making a 30-Day Commitment to herself. Her journey of commitment was to quell procrastination and push through fear. This is currently really inspiring for numerous reasons.</p>
<p>I generally lack a commitment to myself. Other&#8217;s probably notice how many times I have started an exerise program or school. Marathon and degree seeking I have yet to complete. In spite of the voices in my head or my guides telling me others are unhealthy for me. My old pattern is to commit to others. This is due to various reasons (ie co-dependence/wanting to be liked/afraid to make a commitment to myself). Darcy&#8217;s blog plus my own personal transformation that is on going has inspired to commit to at least one thing to do for 30 days. I tend to over commit and use busy work or distractions like internet or taking care of others to procrastinate on the stuff I really need to do.</p>
<p>I really need to become healthier, monetize my blog or make clear decisions, period, about what I want in my life. God forbid if I make a decision that I isn&#8217;t good so I don&#8217;t commit so I don&#8217;t flake out later on myself. HUH so I forgot that its ok to course correct if something isn&#8217;t working in my plan/goal/decision.</p>
<p>For the longest time I would never commit to working out because I would give other people my time and made people a priority over myself. Sad but many of us do this for reasons listed above or not really feeling worthy of committing to ourselves. As if its selfish to go to <a title="Bergen Zumba" href="http://bergenzumba.com/" target="_blank">Zumba</a>! &#8230;which I absolutely fell in love with recently.</p>
<p>Starting today:</p>
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<li>I commit to tracking all the food n drink I take in to help me see where I need to change my diet for weight loss. I aim to take in about 1200 to 1400 calories per day and commit to exercise twice a week for and hour.</li>
<li>I commit  to meditate 5 min twice a day morning and night.</li>
<li>I commit to increase readership of my blog my connecting with one new person or increase my <a title="SE facebook page" href="http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=50175258181&amp;v=wall" target="_blank">Spiritual Endeavor</a> Facebook group page.</li>
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<p>If you would like to join me on a 30-day commitment journey please comment and we can support each other along our quest to regain our personal integrity to ourselves.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>Lessons are a brewing&#8230;</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 09 Oct 2010 04:23:52 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[UPDATES GALORE!!! I am heading to Panama in December 2010. My first trip out of the country. I am very excited and hope you join me on my adventures. There will be a bit of tweeking the blog&#8217;s visuals and content..Stay tuned! On to my current lessons on how I am being schooled by life. [...]]]></description>
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<p>I am heading to Panama in December 2010. My first trip out of the country. I am very excited and hope you join me on my adventures. There will be a bit of tweeking the blog&#8217;s visuals and content..Stay tuned!</p>
<div id="attachment_198" class="wp-caption alignleft" style="width: 310px"><a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/love-tea.jpg"><img class="size-medium wp-image-198" title="Tea Love" src="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/10/love-tea-300x225.jpg" alt="Love thy self!" width="300" height="225" /></a><p class="wp-caption-text">Many thanks for use of this photo By HelloMokona </p></div>
<p>On to my current lessons on how I am being schooled by life. Yeah there is a feeling of Good, Bad and Blah but its all positive since it is sending me on my journey with new ideas, tools, and experiences in my pocket for long road of life ahead.</p>
<p>A year has passed, and one LTR has ended-amicably. Now for the first time in over a year and a half or more if you count before I met my last love I am focusing on the future of my life I find myself awakening to my lessons that abound from that relationship and from my previous 33 years on Earth.</p>
<p>Here is the data so far:<br />
<strong>RELATIONSHIP WITH SELF-</strong> This is how I enjoy my self, how interested in my own wishes, dreams, goals, self love  (te-he) and so on are directly reflected in the outer world experiences of relationships of all kinds. Friendships not excluded.</p>
<p>Friends/Romantic partners see me in a certain way. Some of those relationships evolved in contrast to how I take care or feel about myself. Some love me more than others some demand that I take care of my self more and others are oblivious to how I take care of myself. The point being here the level of intimacy my personal relationship have are in direct correlation to how intimate and close I am with myself.</p>
<p><strong>HAPPINESS-</strong>I have learned a great deal about the abstract that is happiness. One thing I learned is that it has to come from within or I/Anyone will be perpetually unhappy no matter what gifts are offered to him or her. Happiness is a choice but it also can not come from outside circumstances. This means your personal happiness is not determined by outside influences. For example someone says you are super awesome or a piece of garbage you can chose to not be burdened by someone else&#8217;s opinion of you if it does not reflect your true inner feeling about yourself.</p>
<p><strong>LOVE-</strong>Being in love with someone is never enough to hold a relationship together. It does take two people to continue to choose each other daily. Holding on too tight will almost always crush what love is present. With open arms and hands and that freedom is what keeps love fresh and alive. I am not talking about threesomes or open relationships but freedom to be yourself as well as have separate space and time. Some people enjoy every breath of each other, while others need more distance in time and proximity from each other to see the contrast and value of the other. Neither is right or wrong just a understanding of each persons needs to help the flower of love grow.</p>
<p><strong>NEEDS- </strong>I learned that it is very important to ask another what they need in order for the other person to feel loved and I should get the same respect in return. Some people enjoy words of flattery, others actions or interest or curiosity bestowed on a beloved. Learn what your counterpart needs,  don&#8217;t just give them what you need. Understanding the mirror of relationships helps you figure out you but in healthy relationships this mirror is a two way street.</p>
<p><strong>COMMUNICATION and TRUST-</strong> The two most important items for healthy relations ever invented. Cave man grunts showing that he wants to watch tv after work to unwind&#8230;Cave woman has a need to chat about the foraging or that she is upset that cave man is cranky all the time but doesn&#8217;t know why&#8230;Communicating needs, issues, and being fully commited to the process of being a healthy participant in the relationship is a necessity. Trusting your partner will open up and be honest when speaking of needs or criticism is crucial to keep resentment, anger, or a life time of unhappiness or the death of a relationship will occur.</p>
<p>I hope you Love Big, Love Often, but most importantly learn about what you your personal needs are in order to feel loved and give that to yourself as well as asking your partner to do their part in adding to your happiness. After you have loved yourself again and again the bonus of the cuddling with your sweetie will become even more sweet knowing that you always had everything you ever needed to feel loved, inside of you. You just needed to give that to her(him).</p>
<p><em>Post Script-</em>Self respect and calling out those who disrespect and devalue you can be liberating if not done just to validate your hurt feelings but actually awaken parts of you that need to reemurge. Talking  back personal power, claiming dignity for one&#8217;s self is one of the most important things in the world for self love. Living with integrity and keeping the personal ego in check can and will bring in healthier and healthier relationships the more you get to know and treat yourself to a cup of tea and some care.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>Spinning, Spinning, Wondering Where I Will Fall Next</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 27 Mar 2009 19:57:19 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Finding myself again is an interesting process. Self/Personality/Intimate nature has been either locked away or hidden by fear of past pain or what it I lose something if I speak my truth. I am taking the rewarding approach by not condemning myself for my self imposed prison or self inflection of &#8220;I should have done [...]]]></description>
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<p>Finding myself again is an interesting process. Self/Personality/Intimate nature has been either locked away or hidden by fear of past pain or what it I lose something if I speak my truth. I am taking the rewarding approach by not condemning myself for my self imposed prison or self inflection of &#8220;I should have done this a long time ago.&#8221; Part of finding myself again is reclaiming my fem-fatal nature. I back in the day, I took pride in myself and enjoyed my girl-ness. I can&#8217;t say I was a make-up wearer everyday but enjoyed the comical outfits I put together or ones that showed my legs. Those physical characteristics that said to the outer world I care about myself. I am returning to said creature and even attempting the *gasp* what I have never done before, which is wear make-up everyday. My Feme transformation back to self also include self care of beauty, mind, heart and soul. All for later posts.<br />
Fear of rejection, fear of being uninteresting has always kept me from that route of dating in a normal sense. Bizarre, since I can have great conversations with total strangers and I know their whole life story and they sometimes barely catch my name. I am learning that not everyone is interested in other people as I am. That is ok. I also learned from an old friend that maybe I need to be more interested in myself and express that a bit more without the shadow worried that it maybe exposed.<br />
Strangest are my various loves of people or hobbies have come in and out and in again into my life. I am seeking a purpose driven life in a NON-Rick Warren way. Cautious because when I am engaged in someone else or something else I tend to lose myself to the detriment of myself and others. I am very open to those who have been in my inner circle for ages and trust that they are interested the words that come out of my mouth but for newer people I am coy and mysterious. I am falling in love with myself now to change that. Without all this being about me, me, and me in conversation I would like to contribute my true self to others without a wall. Slowly I hope I am getting there. 1st my make-up&#8230;. <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';)' class='wp-smiley' /> </p>
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		<title>Bittersweet Winter</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 24 Dec 2008 22:57:25 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I’ve been reading one of my favorite blogs of a crafter that I follow. Be Present Be Here brought me to tears just now. I have held back all month when I could but couldn’t contain it anymore. The blogger wrote about how an encounter with an old lady at the supermarket almost brought her [...]]]></description>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I’ve been reading one of my favorite blogs of a crafter that I follow. </span><a title="Be Present Be here" href="http://http://bepresentbehere.blogspot.com/2008/12/on-this-winters-night-december-views.html" target="_blank">Be Present Be Here</a><span> brought me to tears just now. I have held back all month when I could but couldn’t contain it anymore. The blogger wrote about how an encounter with an old lady at the supermarket almost brought her to tears and that made me cry. She has lost her grandma . . . not like she wandered off but passed away. A few years ago my mom passed away as well. It’s an odd time of year and I totally understand the loneliness and reasons behind the high suicide rate of the holiday season. Various reasons: missing those who have passed on. Missing those who are far away. Missing those who are near but feel far away in emotional connection and proximity. Feeling like there is nobody to love or to be loved by!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>The time of year when, if one has a small family and few close friends, it feels at times bitter more than sweet. Those who complain about how awful their families are may feel the grass is greener without the drama of big family, but I wish for a big family. One made by loins and by hearts tied together in friendship. I am lucky, even if I sometimes feel like I’m outside looking in on someone else’s party, that tonight two of my single girlfriends are hanging out at my house. One I live with and the other is an old friend whose family is dispersed in various directions.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I sometimes forget that in order to have family I have to create it. This means getting out in the dating world for real, meeting new positive, loving friends who will be a solid support system and want to partake in a life with me punctuated with daily, weekly, and/or festive or monthly communions.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I miss my mom, that is very true! I miss having more of family/friends and more traditions that are built in my life. After hearing a show I listen to on Hay House Radio by Dr. Mona Lisa, I’ve decided I need to impart more joyous activity and community into my life. By watching a funny movie, creating a group, or adding hobbies to my monthly schedule will add much more happiness to my life.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I am grateful to have all I do, my small family and a small group of people who think of me—even when it’s not a holiday. I am blessed!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Much Love and Hugs,</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Fun with Misfit Dolly</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 12 Dec 2008 21:51:55 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Updates from the past 3 or so months would bore you all to tears, so I am going to say one word. CHANGE! The word makes me inherently antsy and sometimes for no good reason. I pride myself on having a cool exterior with bouts of hyperactive joy, but underneath I can be super-tense and [...]]]></description>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">Updates from the past 3 or so months would bore you all to tears, so I am going to say one word. <strong>CHANGE!</strong></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">The word makes me inherently antsy and sometimes for no good reason. I pride myself on having a cool exterior with bouts of hyperactive joy, but underneath I can be super-tense and worked up with no one the wiser! My basket of change has been of change I wanted and change I fear will come. The last bit is really silly since <span style="color: #ff0000;"><em>The Present</em></span> is the only thing we truly have until, oh wait, it’s gone. I am glad I didn’t fret about that last second. Now if I could just let go and let it flow each and every second!</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">Obviously the world is changing, toward the good, I hope. (I am optimistic even if it can be scary.) The current situations/systems are in upheaval and we cannot see the full outcome. The not-so-ethical and nefarious are being dethroned and the sheep are learning to think or take responsibility for themselves. Not always fun but dang gun it’s exciting! Oh, what a time to be blessed to be alive. We obviously are here at this time for our own and global conscious purpose even if we don’t understand the unfolding and our own part in the puzzle yet.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">A friend at work gave me a Misfit Dolly. She still loved her, but she thought it would be fun to bring us 3 misfits in our batcave, a present. A reminder that we have our own island where we take care of each other at least with fun, food, and emotional support. If you want a reference to Misfit Dolly, tune into <a title="Rudoloh-The movie!" href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0058536/" target="_blank"></a><a title="Rudoloh-The movie!" href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0058536/" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; color: windowtext;">Rudolph, the <em>Red-Nosed Reindeer</em></span></a><a title="Rudoloh-The movie!" href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0058536/" target="_blank"></a> this holiday season and see the misfit toys sing and dance to be saved by Rudolf and Santa!</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">Randomness ensues~ the only message I have currently is to myself and all those that need to hear it.</p>
<p class="MsoBodyText"><span style="color: #ff0000;"><strong>I am Divinely guided and protected. Where I am today is all perfect, whole, and complete. Where I am is where I need to be. Where I am going is where I will be when I am ready to serve with my full value and love. All is well in my world!</strong></span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Love and Hugs,</span><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Trebuchet MS&quot;;"><br />
</span><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Smokers Are Some of the Friendliest People!</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:50:04 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I don’t say this with sarcasm or with a husky Harvey Fierstein voice. I have never been a smoker. I was around it enough with my mother. She even smoked when I was in her womb. She swore that if she didn’t I would have been a 10-pound baby. I came out about 7 pounds [...]]]></description>
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<p>I don’t say this with sarcasm or with a husky </span><a title="Harvey" href="http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0001213/" target="_blank">Harvey Fierstein</a> <span>voice. I have never been a smoker. I was around it enough with my mother. She even smoked when I was in her womb. She swore that if she didn’t I would have been a 10-pound baby. I came out about 7 pounds and some change. I think she exaggerated. To the nonsmoking establishment it may seem strange to say I think smokers are some of the friendliest people I have met, but I find this to be very true.</span>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I just went out to our patio at work to eat in the sun. In no less than 2 minutes I was in conversation with a woman smoker. After coming in, a guy whose office I pass every day was walking up the stairs behind me. He was a smoker too. He and I had a mini-conversation about how long he has worked here. I guess I attract friendly people. I tend to calm those who may otherwise not be. I also am very open and will have a conversation with anyone if I am not too tired, and even then I will probably say Hi at the very least. People can sense if they are being judged on their behaviors, even smoking. I don’t like to judge ’cause I don’t want to be judged for being the crazy person that I am. The devil’s advocate inside me wants freedom of choice and expression. That generally will outweigh any dislike I may have for various behaviors.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I learned about smokers being friendly early on. My mom and I, when we worked together, would go on smoke breaks. Other fine friends of mine I would follow for the 5- or 15-minute break depending on how stressful things were. Maybe I am a closet secondhand smoker? It was always nice to feel included even if I wasn’t a smoker. In 7th grade I would hang out with the stoners and smokers even when I didn’t partake. I guess I gave off a vibe of not really fitting in and all of us on the outside “smoking” were always looking in on what so was not cool about everybody else. LOL Not that I didn’t get ridiculed all throughout my young adult life on how I smelled like an ashtray. Sadly I didn’t get the nicotine fix to quell the pain I felt from being called out for something that was not under my control. *tear* I guess the good news is that I will never have to try to quit. : )</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I don’t think smokers are the only friendly people in the world, but they are some of the first that will hold a door, have a chat, and offer something of value to them (a cig or lighter).</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>My friends come in various shades of smoke. Non-, Social-, Frequent-, I am going to die if I don’t have one now. All are warm, very friendly, would give their last smokes to you or share. So I say smoke up or at the very least say Hi to your fellow human. Smoker or Not!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Love and Hugs,</span><span style="font-family: &quot;Trebuchet MS&quot;;"><br />
</span><span>Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Solar Destiny</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 03 Aug 2008 02:36:26 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[This weekend the stars and life have got me really creative, in various moods &#38; emotions and thinking about what destiny has in store for me. I have a dualistic belief that some things in your life are predestined and some things are of choice. Maybe depending on the day, it may all seem very self-serving [...]]]></description>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>This weekend the stars and life have got me really creative, in various moods &amp; emotions and thinking about what destiny has in store for me. I have a dualistic belief that some things in your life are predestined and some things are of choice. Maybe depending on the day, it may all seem very self-serving to think that I have control over my life. In some sense I have a fraction of control but feel at times life and my emotions take me on the journey. I know all good things have their time and purpose even if I have no idea what I am supposed to do in life beyond flickers of interest or desired intent or when my life feels like home.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I do feel that certain people and events happen in my life to influence or change my inner world, my beacon of direction and inspiration. I think these things are on purpose even if the event or person doesn’t know that they are in a synchronistic evolving journey with the collective and me. I only pray that the experience of these events and all these wonderful people that smash into my life will make me a better person, more full of life, happier, and thankful for the energy exchanged. I want to be transformed to be more of who I am supposed to be.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I pray you see the wonderful duality in life. The people and events that hit you upside the head and get you to think, move, grow, and love more than you ever dreamed. Hopeful that my destiny and choice meet me to take me under their wings and transport me to a place filled with creative magic, love, and the possibilities of making my own little heaven on earth.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Love and Hugs,</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Too Much Love of My Own Pain</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 22 Jul 2008 06:43:25 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I think I repeat patterns for many reasons. Habit of not working hard, like easy roads with clear outcomes. Nearly masochistic enjoyment when my heart does the same things over and over again to hurt myself. Archetypes that are innumerable and help me be the clown, wounded child, and lonely hearts club member, to name [...]]]></description>
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<p>I think I repeat patterns for many reasons.</p>
<ol type="1">
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Habit of not working hard, like easy roads      with clear outcomes. </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Nearly masochistic enjoyment when my      heart does the same things over and over again to hurt myself. </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Archetypes that are innumerable and help      me be the clown, wounded child, and lonely hearts club member, to name but      a few repeating themes. </span></li>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Other fun stuff on my mind this week is that I have way too many interests, shiny things that catch my attention or desire. Choosing a path or a select few that hold my passion and love and will give me stability in all areas of life is a super challenge for me. Good to be creative and interested, bad if I am stuck in a corner worrying what to paint, to love, to write, and to act in a directive manner.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>This weekend I was spending time with two good friends. I was inspired Saturday night and wrote numerous poems at their house and wrote many more Sunday and Monday. So I was productive and had fun. Go Figure?</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I realize all-or-nothing thinking is always dangerous and, I know I need focus in desired dreams in order to reach them. Be it love, work, connection to the whole of life and health of mind, body, and spirit.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>As a little girl I didn’t worry so much about choice of career or purpose. I had a talk show. I would dance, do gymnastics on my bed, I would interview imaginary people with my tape player, I would sing, I ran around wanting to be everything, loved being goofy and imaginative. My mom suggested I be a hairdresser or teacher. Yuck, I always scoffed. I just wanted people to laugh or enjoy what show I was doing. I was giving many a performance to an imaginary audience or my mom, nana, or brother. Man, I wish I could recapture what that little girl had.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I’m realizing now at 31 years old that I have a whole lot of life left to make my dreams happen even when I feel so hopeless and feel I haven’t fully given any of my true dreams a shot. Feeling as if I couldn’t do whatever it is my heart wants me to sing. I desire many things before I die in this lifetime, many just having to do with loving the people I ensconce myself with and those I would love to touch in the future with my own unique spirit.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I am very close to my silly happy-go-lucky side as well as my self-loathing pain-filled side. I know it’s OK to love both but my love of my pain or consistent internal suffering isn’t productive for a loving, generous, compassionate, and meaningful life. Does make for great art of any substance though!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I look to my friends, family, and spirit to guide me so I can share my love with others as well as with myself.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Suggestions?</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Love and Hugs,</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Jen</span></p>
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		<title>My new romance with the Bus!</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 08 Jul 2008 22:27:51 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Since having to sell my car due to unemployment I have re-entered the world a walker and public transportation junkie! I hope to save money to buy a folding bike so when I get work I can take the bus/train and can commute the rest of the way if the location is far from the [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Since having to sell my car due to unemployment I have re-entered the world a walker and public transportation junkie! I hope to save money to buy a <a title="Citizen Folding Bike " href="http://www.citizenbike.com/catalog.asp?product_category_id=1&amp;product_id=1" target="_blank">folding bike</a> so when I get work I can take the <a title="NJ Transit" href="http://www.njtransit.com" target="_blank">bus/train</a> and can commute the rest of the way if the location is far from the transit stop. Until I gain speedy freedom on a bike, I have been learning my local bus routes. There are many tricks to the bus, apparently grocery shopping trips are easy but one may want to make sure the bus you are taking isn&#8217;t topped full of people. I am thankful to a very nice young woman who gave me that advice and graciously took me to another bus stop with a better chance for me and food would get a seat.</p>
<p>Learning to readjust to a new way of doing things. Especially if I am carrying extra loads now. Pre-planing and possibly a cab or smaller trips will have to be my main stay for a while. I see all of this as a positive learning experience as I am learning to plan my time, execution, and the <a title="WWF.org" href="http://www.wwf.org.uk/oneplanet/ophome.asp">planet</a>. Not to shabby due to financial hardship of job loss. My butt shaping up more as well.</p>
<p>I have to say even with buses I walk more because I am still learning routes, have little cash from unemployment and me trying to not become a hermit as depression can sync in if I never leave the house. Libraries are great and general tying up loose ends, Newark, DMV, Ez-pass and the post office have become events where I can commune with people. I need to be around people even if I don&#8217;t know them a little interaction a smile and hello goes a long way.</p>
<p>Hugs,</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>Reinspired Dreams and Intuitive Connections</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 22 Jun 2008 00:58:06 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[As always when I am looking or am open to signs from the Universe, many tiny threads of synchronicity show up. They usually pop up to either teach me something, inspire me to take action, or give me guidance that I am following the right path. This week I feel the signs and here are [...]]]></description>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">As always when I am looking or am open to signs from the Universe, many tiny threads of synchronicity show up. They usually pop up to either teach me something, inspire me to take action, or give me guidance that I am following the right path. This week I feel the signs and here are a few things that are getting me inspired.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">I am reading <em><a title="The Tipping Point" href="http://www.amazon.com/Tipping-Point-Little-Things-Difference/dp/0316346624" target="_blank">The Tipping Point</a> </em> by Malcolm Gladwell, I know a little behind the times or maybe just right when I needed to read it. Another wonderful inspiration who injected caliente flavor back into my life, my favorite nerdy cutie, Tim Ferriss. He inspires me to travel, and love life and myself <a title="Spiritual Endeavor and My crush" href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/http:/spiritualendeavor.com/my-crush-on-tim-ferriss/" target="_blank">again</a>, Here is this week’s post of Why Bigger Goals = Less Competition via his <a title="The Four Hour Workweek Blog" href="http://www.fourhourworkweek.com/blog/2008/06/19/why-bigger-goals-less-competition-plus-eco-bounty-winners/" target="_blank">blog</a>. Last but not least, from my DVD collection, the movie <em><a title="My Date with Drew" href="http://www.mydatewithdrew.com/index.html" target="_blank">My Date With Drew.</a></em><em></em></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">The themes within each of these inspirations are connected or highlighted by various signposts. Sometimes these signs need translation. As an intuitive and empath, I can see threads in my own life when I am not blocking life. For others it tends to be easier as I am not “emotionally invested” in a particular outcome. I know that everyone has seen or felt these signs and we get either excited by them or scared and brush them off. My hope is to inspire others to open up to life in order to listen to these markers. In the past I had really clear markers on my own intuition and mistook them for things that they weren’t. That’s the trouble with translating the intangible sometimes. Through experience I learned that I needed not to push what I wanted onto the signposts and let life move me to my next destination.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">These connections help me dream big impossible dreams like the Man from La Mancha. Tim says one should go for the bigger impossible dreams due to less competition. Drew Barrymore speaks of taking risks and loves that she may be a marker of fate that inspires Brian to go after his dreams (one of which was to have a date with Drew). <em>The Tipping Point</em> helps show the interconnectivity of our emotions and energy and their ability to change the flow of things, like Hush Puppies’ popularity, Paul Revere spreading news of the British invasion, or help being provided after a tsunami.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">Sometimes I get an idea or person stuck in my head like Tim Ferriss. My intuition is turned on “repeat” on a topic until I ask, So what is the message? As interesting as Tim seems, there isn’t a logical reason for me to continue to be pulled by his aura, especially since I have never met him. Other times when I get a stomachache or can’t sleep, I know something is up and wait for news. Before I moved out of my apartment in Montclair, NJ, I wasn’t sleeping well and had dreams of a fire. A few days later my ceiling caved in on my boo-boo kitty. Luckily he was OK. He is sleeping right beside me now like a good boy. After I moved out, there was a fire in the building directly next to my old apartment. Signs are good as long as you know what to do with them. I was lucky that the ceiling inspired a move so that Shadow and I would not be engulfed in flames.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">My best friend Meghan told me recently that one of the things she likes about me is my ability to dream. She has known me since the 10th grade and has seen many dreams come out of my head. I bet she is laughing right now. I think Tim on repeat has a lot to do with reminding me to take life by the cojones. It could mean I am on the right path as long as I continue to listen and see signs of feeling good about where I am headed.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">I have many dreams and aspirations. Here are my main priorities this year.</p>
<ul type="disc">
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;">To find a great sustaining love with an      intelligent, funny, caring, and cute guy that will eventually lead to      marriage, kids, the whole shebang.</li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;">To find work that helps others and incorporates      flexibility, possible travel, communicating with many different cultures,      and reigniting my Spanish and French. I have a phone interview tomorrow      for a job as described. Eek, so excited!</li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;">I intend to learn more about how I can personally      contribute to my favorite charities. One especially dear to my heart is      the medical fund at <a title="Start II Save the Animals Resue Team" href="http://members.petfinder.com/~NJ40/about_us.html" target="_blank">Start II</a>, an animal rescue group that saves      abused and abandoned animals.</li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;">I also intend to publish my poetry, write      more poetry, post blogs, seek freelance writing assignments, and start      outlines for two or three book ideas.</li>
</ul>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">Intuitive signs and inspiration even came when I named this blog way back in March 2007. My brother and I were sitting in my office looking for open domain names. I knew I wanted the direction of the blog to be spiritual but not necessarily religious, and my brother noted I had this quote by Henry David Thoreau on my wall.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt; text-align: center;"><span style="color: #d52941;">If people advance confidently in the direction of their dreams,<span style="font-family: &quot;Trebuchet MS&quot;;"><br />
</span>and endeavor to live the life which they have imagined,<span style="font-family: &quot;Trebuchet MS&quot;;"><br />
</span>they will meet with a success unexpected in common hours.</span>
</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;">God love Thoreau, that man really knew how to live! I love how these connected threads show me how to live an inspired life and to follow my dreams. Godspeed to live the way you always dreamed.</p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Love and Hugs,</span><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Trebuchet MS&quot;;"><br />
</span><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Life among the Unemployed</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 06 Jun 2008 17:03:03 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I have to say the on-again-off-again lifestyle wouldn’t be so bad if I were financially safe and secure, and I would think nothing of being out of work. Being creative about making even a small bit of cash is at best “interesting.” I have lived in various wealth categories: poor, homeless, taking care of business, [...]]]></description>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I have to say the on-again-off-again lifestyle wouldn’t be so bad if I were financially safe and secure, and I would think nothing of being out of work. Being creative about making even a small bit of cash is at best “interesting.” I have lived in various wealth categories: poor, homeless, taking care of business, saving and spending, and “at least I have my health!”</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Now I like to think every experience, either breathing or going through a great or not-so-great time, deserves to be viewed in a Spiritual spotlight.</span></p>
<ul type="disc">
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Can I be more humble? </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Can I be more grateful? </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>What can I learn? </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>How did I get here? </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>What thoughts, conditioning, self-issues      are at play here? </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>How can I change my thoughts, actions,      and feelings to improve the situation? </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Is my personal discipline a factor? </span></li>
<li class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Am I taking stock of where my purpose      lies? </span></li>
</ul>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>You would also think, with a lot of time and freedom, my physical form would be at the very least tighter. I don’t have the excuse that I don’t have time for exercise. Alas, not so much. A schedule would work I suppose, at least a rhythm of life so I am not surfing the net, wallowing in self pity, or watching TV for hours and hours.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>It’s funny, until the release of the fear that the Universe will take care of you, things can be blocked. Maybe it’s for humbling purposes; maybe it’s supposed to channel me to another path, maybe I am learning about faith.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Job, the famous biblical figure, had to go through a whole heck of a lot more than I (I hope!) to have faith that no matter what God/Life threw at him he would survive. We all can do more than survive with a healthy positive attitude. Maybe we have to think about someone like <a title="Left to Tell by Immaculee Illibagiza" href="http://www.hayhouse.com/details.php?id=2680" target="_blank"></a></span><a title="Left to Tell by Immaculee Illibagiza" href="http://www.hayhouse.com/details.php?id=2680" target="_blank">Immaculee Ilibagiza</a>,<span><a title="Left to Tell by Immaculee Illibagiza" href="http://www.hayhouse.com/details.php?id=2680" target="_blank"></a> and the reality of losing my car or having to pay bills much later than desired isn’t so bad. The knack to surviving your own economic downturn maybe is putting on an inner smile when the clouds are overhead. No one can take away your smile, and it doesn’t cost a thing!</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Love and Hugs,<br />
Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Simple Living, The Future of America?</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 03 Jun 2008 05:34:38 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Sl spirituality and charity. Live richly with being aware of the bottom line. Read The 4 Hour Work Week or The Simple Living Guide for more info. Sorry I haven’t posted for a bit. I have been feeling a bit off-kilter due to finances. Please forgive me! I am making a prediction, which maybe isn’t [...]]]></description>
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<p>Sl spirituality and charity. Live richly with being aware of the bottom line. Read <a title="The Four Hour Workweek" href="http://www.fourhourworkweek.com/" target="_blank">The 4 Hour Work Week</a> or <a title="The Simple Livign Guide" href="http://www.amazon.com/Simple-Living-Guide-Janet-Luhrs/dp/0553067966" target="_blank">The Simple Living Guide</a> for more info.</p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Sorry I haven’t posted for a bit. I have been feeling a bit off-kilter due to finances. Please forgive me!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I am making a prediction, which maybe isn’t one but I am hopeful it will come to pass. America will become a simplistic society in time, waste, living, and values in the next 20 years. I say this because of the America we see today. The crazy housing market, debt ratios, and pain of more and more people realizing that stuff only puts a temporary Band-Aid on pain, sadness, and self-esteem issues.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Simplicity is the art of reducing life to key components that you value. Like everything, life is a balance. Some people enjoy living frugally and splurging on key things like health, love, travel, books, self growth, learning, personal spirituality, and charity. Live richly while being aware of the bottom line. Read <em><a title="The Four Hour Workweek" href="http://www.fourhourworkweek.com/" target="_blank"></a></em></span><em><a title="The Four Hour Workweek" href="http://www.fourhourworkweek.com/" target="_blank">The 4 Hour Work Week</a></em> or <em><a title="The Simple Livign Guide" href="http://www.amazon.com/Simple-Living-Guide-Janet-Luhrs/dp/0553067966" target="_blank">The Simple Living Guide</a></em></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>The direction America could swing is coming to the realization that the Big Mac that they are eating isn’t what they value, although by the purchase it seems like it is for the moment. We have lost sight of what does matter in our culture. It’s not to say you shouldn’t have needs met with dental, medical care, or a warm bed. If what you value is 400-thread Egyptian cotton but you can’t afford your car payment, your priorities may be out of whack. However, if all things are in order and fine sheets are what you want then be my guest. The lesson here is not to be stingy with oneself for the sake of it but to really prioritize what you or your family personally value. The Joneses have been dead since the 50s, but we are still looking at them for what shiny car they bought and for their approval. Honestly they can’t even afford those things now so don’t try to be like them.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>My personal simple journey is, in part, knowing what I value and what my childhood lacked. I am still trying to outrun my ego needs of running away and feeling valuable. I remember when I was maybe 20 I had excellent credit, steady work, and then my childhood needs took me shopping. I remember in one day I went to Ikea and spent $1200. This was a splurge and not preplanned. My need to feel OK about myself, to feel deserving or worthy, made me buy my bedroom furniture and entertainment center on credit. After floundering, being unhappy at work, leaving jobs, and being depressed, it took me nearly 7 years and then some to pay off that and other debt. In the meantime, I am learning now about doing what one has to do to stay afloat even if you don’t want to. (Minus stress of work that becomes a mental health concern.) It doesn’t mean you have to do “it” forever. To this day I am still learning lessons and realizing that personal happiness may not come from money, but lack of security and stability will give you an awful feeling that isn’t fun. Motivation to action or depression, it is your choice!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I myself have been good and bad at simplicity. The good, I don’t own much of what I don’t value. I know people and places interest me more than too many things to clutter my life with. I have enough paper for that! </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Love and Hugs,<br />
Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Manipulation Isn&#8217;t Sexy</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 23 May 2008 01:51:56 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Many of us people pleasers, or people who seek the love of others, use unconscious manipulation to try to get what we seek. This manipulation for the average person is under the radar and usually goes unnoticed. It is oh so sexy. Not! Now I am not talking about extreme cases like that of a [...]]]></description>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Many of us people pleasers, or people who seek the love of others, use unconscious manipulation to try to get what we seek. This manipulation for the average person is under the radar and usually goes unnoticed. It is oh so sexy. Not!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Now I am not talking about extreme cases like that of a serial killer, as many will not be reading my blog. Would be nice but they might not like the light! Some of those types need to manipulate to get what they want or else they cause harm to others; they rarely become conscious enough to want to change.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Some people use manipulation for power. Some use manipulation in experiments with people. They justify their use by having excuses like I was testing you or I wanted to see your “false” reaction to my “false” action. That in and of itself is a power trip or insecurity about being authentic or just plain mean.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Manipulation can take hold of us personally, as if an untrained monkey has the reins of your life. Once awoken we still may be hard-pressed to see the underlying issue of why we feel the need to change ourselves or others so we can feel safe in the world. We sometimes think that getting what we want has to be at the expense of another’s personal free will.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Many of us manipulate. Another form of manipulation is guilt. Until we let go of the need for people to like us, we will probably have the instinct to change ourselves or push people to be a certain way so we feel safe or loved. We also manipulate ourselves when it comes to food, shopping, debt, and other addictions of the ego. How many times can you talk yourself into buying something you know you can’t afford, justifying it by saying that you deserve it or you’ve been good for like 40 seconds? How many times do we say we want to lose weight but talk ourselves out of getting up early?</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>All these experiences we have chosen for ourselves to be reflected back at us to learn about them and to change and grow or to live a life that is unsatisfactory or unhealthy. We have a choice. Thank goodness!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Spirit feels when we manipulate, it gets the needs of our ego for the approval or comfort we seek. Spirit asks us repeatedly not to see that desire as truth. The truth is you already have everything you need. Pushing yourself, your need for attention or love or trying to get someone to do something that they don’t really want to do, are forms of manipulation. Once you let go of the need for control or approval, you already have all the peace, love, truth, as well as the ability to act consciously in the situation. Ah, but letting go is the challenge we all face . . .</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>I send out a challenge for this week to see how ya’ll have tried to tame the beast of manipulation even in a small way. Examples: Telling people in your life you like something when it’s unpopular. By putting down the martyr cross you can let people in and know that you don’t have to be anything other than you.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Love and Hugs,</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Forgiveness, Psst . . . It’s Not for Them</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 09 May 2008 00:19:05 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[We all have raised boo-boos when it comes to forgiveness. We have felt hurt, betrayed, unloved, uncared for—blah, blah, blah. Really we all have wounds; some seem deeper than others, some are made deeper by the whining about them. Through time and counseling we can still hold on to the anger, sadness, and victim mentality; [...]]]></description>
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<p>We all have raised boo-boos when it comes to forgiveness. We have felt hurt, betrayed, unloved, uncared for—blah, blah, blah. Really we all have wounds; some seem deeper than others, some are made deeper by the whining about them. Through time and counseling we can still hold on to the anger, sadness, and victim mentality; the feeling that they don’t deserve to get off the hook for the “incident.” I have to say for myself that even though the feeling has lessened over the years, there are people I worked for that hold a dark place in my heart. I guess this doesn’t show me being a beacon of Spirit and Light. LOL At least I am consciously trying to give up my entitlement to old ghosts of those experiences or of childhood. Always with the childhood. Hahah.</span>
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<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>We all know the power of forgiveness. It is something that can lift a trunk full of stones and rocks from our backs. How do we get there? Sheesh, damn if I know. LOL I think there is a time when that trunk no longer matches the other luggage you are carrying and you are ready to cast it off. Sometimes it takes time but usually an acceptance and forward movement is needed for forgiveness to take hold. Sometimes it’s simply being OK that your plans weren’t as good as God/Universe’s plan is for you. Even though the journey may be rough and bumpy, where you are going is far more enjoyable. There were many men I put stock in who were clearly not for me but I purchased the ticket anyway. That journey got me here. Jobs that suck out your soul but for a purpose you may or may not later discover. The process of letting go of the pain or anger is as hard as giving up a favorite menu item. It’s a comforting friend, solace in knowing the devil you know verses the one that may or may not be around the corner.</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>The letting go may take many steps like screaming, raging, crying, numbness, need for validation, a pulpit that says you were wronged! At some point there is a time when these rocks get too heavy and you don’t want them anymore. That is the time when release and forgiveness can come in. Prayer, meditation, writing, drawing are all great but you need to make room in the heart and mind to let Grace, Peace, and Unconditional Love to move in. That spot in your heart where that “incident” happened just needs a smidgen of God’s good stuff to get in and clean the crevices like the Merry Maid service does. At a price that is just right!</span></p>
<p class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 3.5pt 5pt 0in; line-height: 19.2pt;"><span>Life is ongoing. There will be many more events, people, things to forgive and hopefully be forgiven for. I am ready to move on and make space for more of the good. Forgiveness is never about them, the so-called violators. It’s about giving ourselves freedom, letting the Universe take care of the residual karma. We can’t see the whole picture but the Universe can. No justifications needed. Not forgiving hurts us way more than it hurts others. Be good to yourself. You deserve it!</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;">Hugs,<br />
Jen</span></p>
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		<title>Living la vida loca! &amp; The art of low expectations.</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 01 May 2008 21:02:47 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Well my crazy life is wonderful. I feel that I don&#8217;t always fit in, I am a bit off kilter and silly but am I friends with everybody, go figure. My roomie Jeanette*, Kirsten and I went to a goth/electronic/80&#8242;s/industrial club this past week-end. As always no matter where I go I have a great [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/05/1173832481_befe436f9f_by-al_green.jpg"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-61" title="1173832481_befe436f9f_by-al_green" src="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/05/1173832481_befe436f9f_by-al_green-150x150.jpg" alt="Utopia on the dance floor by Al_Green" width="150" height="150" /></a> Well my crazy life is wonderful. I feel that I don&#8217;t always fit in, I am a bit off kilter and silly but am I friends with everybody, go figure. <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  My roomie Jeanette*, Kirsten and  I went to a goth/electronic/80&#8242;s/industrial club this past week-end. As always no matter where I go I have a great time but I had an especially super time this go round. I have been to <a title="QXTs" href="http://www.qxts-nj.com/">Q&#8217;s</a> numerous times but this time I really saw what utopia is like in black vinyl. There were many varieties of people, college kids, goths, cyber punks, the angry, the emo, the jaded, the happy, gay, trans-gendered and a small handful of NJ&#8217;s finest guidos. It occurred to me that even though the guidos were probably the most made fun of, they still were not harassed or thrown out because they were different. My idealism and heart filled with such joy due to this epiphany. I really would love the whole world to be like that dance floor.</p>
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<p>The word of the day: Expectations. Let&#8217;s scream as if we are on Pee Wee&#8217;s Playhouse! Expectations can make a good woman go bad. I will put myself to shame if it helps others or makes people laugh then I feel I have done my job. The highs and the lows of my life have all been subject to my personal expectations. At 13, I expected to marry Joey MacIntyre from NKOTB. It&#8217;s obvious that my high expectations were illusionary but it was still a blow to my heart. High expectations of friends, family or relationships have gotten me into trouble as well. Through my fault as well as other parties involved. Moral, Ethical or just plain wishing someone would treat me the way I treat them has given me much disappointment directly proportionate to the height of my expectations. This is prefaced by me not always expressing my needs/vice versa or the other party not able to honor my needs. I think many of us feel so close with people that we expect them to read our minds or be like us in thought and deed. Even if we all wish we didn&#8217;t have to ask for what we need or desire we still do in order to &#8220;communicate.&#8221; God awful isn&#8217;t it! LOL When communication works, much teamwork can be had and success comes more smoothly. Working on the same page or aiming for the same stars or future, your connection feels complete and love grows stronger as a result. Alas, we must cross the threshold of asking and being <span class="p"><strong><em>vulnerable</em></strong></span>.</p>
<p>My expectations for myself have been set too high and too low at times. It can be hard to find roll models for keeping a healthy balance of going after dreams or everyday tasks without wanting to kill yourself if you make a mistake or don&#8217;t accomplish in the area of desire. After my Mom died I was trying to do, do, do and task my grief away so I could get through the day. I figured because she had a stroke I would do a marathon in her honor. Mind you I had not exercised for a millennium back then. I went on ward hoe as it is in my Aires nature to act first, ask questions later. I started run/walking and did long runs on weekends. I was doing really good and got as high as 13 miles on Saturdays. My own personal financial issues with getting to the marathon as well as my own follow through slowed me, I lost momentum and bailed. Reaching for stars was great but my own inner cheerleader and those who were around was not enough for me to continue on my merry way. My expectations during a rough time were not really healthy at that point. My goal although meaningful kept me from processing one of the most painful times in my life, losing my Mommy!</p>
<p>I think we all confuse the idea of expectation in our heads. Somewhere in the brain we really are trying to make demands on ourself and others. I think its important to have standards even high ones but there is a certain level of communication one has to have with themselves or others. This chat is to really see if the expectation is what is best for us at that time, truly desired, or is based on &#8220;other peoples&#8221; wants for lives. Letting go of the idea <strong>IT MUST or I HAVE TO</strong> is key, as it lessens disappointment. If timely, there is an opportunity for discussion and a channel to intimacy with your Higher Self and the people in your world.</p>
<p>Thanks for being here for this wonderful and strange ride. I would really love to hear your thoughts on any of my blog subjects or any interesting stories in your world. Come on don&#8217;t be shy, we are all friends here!</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,</p>
<p>Jen</p>
<p>*Fabulous Queen Isis Kali known in the scene and lingerie Store goddess of <a title="Jeanette's fab store" href="http://redcherrycheesecake.com" target="_blank">RedCherryCheesecake.com</a> fame!</p>
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		<title>Disapointment: My own best torture device</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 24 Apr 2008 05:42:46 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Disappointment has been one of my soul lessons and personal challenges. In the past, disappointment and feelings that I chose to feel from such experiences lead to massive pain, stalemate and a massive case of victim mentality. Growing up I was a hippy child in a sense; no rules, no challenges to be a good [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/04/1338222146_by-weegeebored.jpg"><img class="alignnone size-thumbnail wp-image-59" title="1338222146_by-weegeebored" src="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/04/1338222146_by-weegeebored-150x150.jpg" alt="The look of pure disapointment" width="150" height="150" /></a>Disappointment has been one of my soul lessons and personal challenges. In the past, disappointment and feelings that I chose to feel from such experiences lead to massive pain,  stalemate and  a massive case of victim mentality. Growing up I was a hippy child in a sense; no rules, no challenges to be a good student and not so much as a go brush your teeth before bed. My Mom taught me about the greats, Joe Jackson, Issac Asimov and various spiritualities. Discipline and stick to-it-ness wasn&#8217;t in her teaching tool kit. I was not babied but I was hugged a lot. <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';)' class='wp-smiley' />  Not sure if my brother would agree on the non babied assessment. <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  I never had my hand held including times when I wish there had been many hands of support, encouragement and kicking my butt. Choir concerts and sexual harassment at school are two examples. So disappointment was a early theme that made my rose colored glasses a bit  muddy in coloring.</p>
<p>We all know everyone suffers setbacks, walls that seem to hold you back and even just feathers that seem like walls. When reaching that feather wall you can be so frustrated you don&#8217;t realize how easy it is to move the feather to reach your potential. My pattern was to run away from disappointment. Man I was like the roadrunner when it comes to running away but eventually the feeling of lack of worthiness would creep in and boy did it tackle me. Whining to my Mom or anyone who would listen and even that grew tiring. Sometimes disappointment would cripple me so bad that I really couldn&#8217;t see the way to change the situation. Life tends to move forward and I would ask, where is the next hurdle?</p>
<p>I know that the lessons weren&#8217;t really about not getting the guy, the job, or the fact I wished life was different; it was me wanting me to be different. I thank disappointment, as it taught me not to give up on myself. That took oh many many years people! I am sure I will be attacked by the Disappointment Bear now and again. Although I will hug him now as he isn&#8217;t as scary as he once was. LOL Avoiding disappointment is like avoiding your face. Eventually you have to look at it to be ok with it. I also think disappointment is a great marker for what you care about. How would you know if you always got everything you ever wanted easily? To me that would be like a place without growth. I know the experience also teaches me whether or not I want something bad enough. In the past I didn&#8217;t have my inner cheerleader standing by to say <span style="font-weight: bold;">You can do it!</span> Or <span style="font-weight: bold;">Why not try you&#8217;ll be no worse for ware</span>. Self assurance is a quality everyone needs to learn. I still like a friend/family cheerleader now an again but now know I will go for my goals, aspirations, and the guy even if I fall on my face a few times. Thank goodness for plastic surgery. (Kidding!)</p>
<p>Personal expectations tend to high when you have a disappointing feeling in your midst. Expectations will be another future post. <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';)' class='wp-smiley' /> </p>
<p>I hope there is a sense of ease now when you are hit with setbacks and roadblocks. As always life loves to see how we fare under conditions of variety. I would love to hear your stories and how you have overcome or been shaken but not stirred. Any perspective on riding the waves of life would excellent, as I think we can all learn from one another.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,<br />
Jen</p>
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		<title>Hard work! What is it good for?</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:32:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Well, well, little miss I hate doing anything that expends energy. Speaking to myself of course. I used to be so efficient (umm lazy), so much so that when I went to take in the laundry from the laundromat I would nearly kill myself my carrying two 30 lbs bags up the stairs just so [...]]]></description>
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<p>Well, well, little miss I hate doing anything that expends energy. Speaking to myself of course. I used to be so efficient (umm lazy), so much so that when I went to take in the laundry from the laundromat I would nearly kill myself my carrying two 30 lbs bags up the  stairs just so I wouldn&#8217;t have to go up and down again. Awake again from a life coma, I know that hard work is in order to claim what I want in life. If I want to manifest things in my life like being 112 lbs, writing an e-book for ending depression, making more than enough money than I will ever need and finding a fabulous guy to date and eventually marry, I have to do the leg work. Manifesting takes many angles. One, is the affirmative thought one has the goal attained with belief. Another the feeling(s) you have as if the goal is achieved and doing the leg work by changing thinking and behavior to meet the universe more than halfway to reach said goal. Finally the trickiest part, the ability to let go of control, give up the result (No feeling like you will die if you don&#8217;t accomplish or attain) and be patient.</p>
<p>All those things I have been able to do rather unconsciously and others times really push through and sometimes give up when the going got to &#8220;hard&#8221;. Now my mind set is clearer and stopping on my journey is not an option. Knowing what I want helps a great deal, still fuzzy on some stuff but over all have a better idea now more than ever. My mind and body fight me at times but my Spirit says I am Already There. The great thing about Spirit is that it knows no obstacle or resistance. Us humans have that luxury. After working out to a brutal <a title="Jillian the toughest trainer on Earth" href="http://www.jillianmichaels.com" target="_blank">Killian Michaels</a> workout today and reading T. Have Eker is that, being fully committed to a goal be it fitness, love, money, adding contribution to the world, ________ fill in the blank, takes effort. That doesn&#8217;t mean you won&#8217;t have somethings fall on your lap but for the most part the doing creates the accomplishment. The belief or the knowing that it already IS, is just the visual your mind and body need to believe Spirit when it says It is already So!</p>
<p>As I kick myself and love myself, I ask do I have what it takes to do the hard work? Do I want these goals bad enough to challenge the status quo, without the easy, fries with that shake? How about you, you may work at a job that you hate because its easy. Do you avoid dating because someone may actually challenge your thinking or mirror yourself? Or hey maybe they will love the way you laugh and you have to deal with that?</p>
<p>Do you really think your gonna win the lotto if you don&#8217;t get off the couch and drive so far away to the 7-11  and purchase one. Neither is sitting on the couch and wishing for the inches to disappear while watching the Biggest Loser. I know, I tried and it didn&#8217;t work. *Tear* I guess I am working out to be steamy hot. At least I am stronger, faster and I have the technology to manifest again and again. <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' /> </p>
<p>I hope I have stirred within that makes you say to yourself, Go Big or Go Home!</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,<br />
Jen</p>
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		<title>Stability tada!</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 01 Apr 2008 17:37:58 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Stability is funny. I look at stability as something one makes for themselves with the people and things they surround themselves with. My own journey to stability has been a process. My childhood was riddled with endless moves, I mean seriously, 18 times before my 18th birthday and I was no Army Brat. I had [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/?attachment_id=50" rel="attachment wp-att-50" title="Wisdom and Stability by SibleyHunter"><img src="http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/04/wisdom-and-stabilty-by-sibleyhunter.thumbnail.jpg" alt="Wisdom and Stability by SibleyHunter" /></a>Stability is funny. I look at stability as something one makes for themselves with the people and things they surround themselves with. My own journey to stability has been a process. My childhood was riddled with endless moves, I mean seriously, 18 times before my 18th birthday and I was no Army Brat. I had quite a lot of anxiety as a kid. We never had a lot of money so meals were inventive and filled with Taylor Ham and Mac and Cheese. I was so tense as a kid and had a feeling that we would have a fire and loose everything. I used to wear my clothes to bed in fear I would lose everything and nothing left. Ironic because when I was 12 the shoe dropped again in my life and all I had was what I was wearing when me and my mom were homeless in Florida. Please don’t pity me, even though it was tough and sucky for a kid to go through, I know what I value in life due to these experiences.</p>
<p>As an adult I own very few things possibly because I fear that at any moment I may move or some natural disaster will take it all away. Or really the fact is I know that I own things but they do not own me. I used to be OBSESSED with magazines so much so from about 1991 to 2007 I would take my articles (even those of which I never read) with me from every move. They were like my security blanket of control. I know metaphysically I have control of my life but for much of life I gave my environment and external stuff power to give me a sense of control and stability. Hence we all love rituals and the familiar corner Shop Rite or Dunkin Donuts to make us feel like we are home. Thank God for an Ice coffee with mocha swirl syrup and moo! A reason why I liked Catholicism so much is for its architecture and design for ritual.</p>
<p>Currently I don’t need things to make me feel stable but enjoy them to enhance my life. That is probably why I only own what I can fit into a small bedroom. I will probably be a <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vagabond_(person)" title="Wiki">bohemian vagabond</a> for life even if I have a central home life and responsibilities for the rest of my years. Wanderlust will always be inside me and possessions will just be toys to play with. <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wCF3ywukQYA" title="Kelly">Shoes! Lets get um!</a></p>
<p>My life is provided stability by the relationships of love and friendship that I have. No matter what, I know there are a select few that if the ship went down they would go down with me gleefully. Well at least we would be supporting and laughing each other during the trails of the day. I loved my mom and although it was inordinately tough to deal with her, she still gave all the love she had to me and my brother. Our family journey helped me see that stuff really doesn’t matter as much as the people in your life. Mind you I still love paper products known as books and my poetry and journals. I love my Mac and sometimes a fierce pair of shoes but I know I love my loved ones so much more and would give up all my &#8220;stuff&#8221; if I had too for them.</p>
<p>I hope your own journey of stability brings you back to what truly matters. People, Books,  and furry things of course! <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' /> </p>
<p>Love and Hugs,<br />
Jen</p>
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		<title>Laugh, Cry, &amp; How to not go crazy in this reality.</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 28 Mar 2008 02:50:09 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I am an over thinker, not necessarily worrier but I think till the cows, chickens and horses come home. Habitually not always with constructive thoughts. I am also an emotional absorber, an intuitive and generally emotional. I cry at movies, puppies being hurt and cry when I empathize which is all to often. I am [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I am an over thinker, not necessarily worrier but I think till the cows, chickens and horses come home. Habitually not always with constructive thoughts. I am also an emotional absorber, an intuitive and generally emotional. I cry at movies, puppies being hurt and cry when I empathize which is all to often. I am also stoic at times as if to protect myself from feeling. For example when I am problem solving, or if I have to much on my plate as if I can&#8217;t be concerned with emotions when I need to pay my rent. I will let off steam by crying but or getting angry at myself or an object. Damn you chair, I kill you! LOL I was speaking to a friend recently and it hit me that I still have stuff that I need to deal with. LOL A shocker right?!! I am still human and breathing. LOL Sometimes  its easy to forget to check in with myself and ask how am I doing, are those feelings my feelings or are they someone else&#8217;s, can I do better next time without the negative self talk?</p>
<p>How do I not go crazy? Sometimes I let the crazy out. I will drive around in my car and scream. Sometimes I dance out my issues or just give myself ME time to cry, think, or just BE! That can be challenging with life and people in it drawing attention away from myself. It is so hard for someone like myself who thrive when people need me. I know it is never selfish to take ME time. Without it one can continue to be lost within themselves and then happiness is always elusive.</p>
<p>Happy Birthday to ME!</p>
<p>On the eve of my 31st birthday I am happy with how far I have come as a human, mistakes and all. I know I have many things I want to do and become and why not start some of them this year. I know for sure my 2008 will include more ME time for myself, even if it&#8217;s 10 minutes more a day. Nothing so drastic as everyone in my phone will be deleted. (Sorry friends I will see you when I am done with ME time.) LOL By making my needs important and tuning into my higher self and my ego self so I can give more of who I really am to my loved ones and to life as a whole.</p>
<p>Much love and hugs,</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>New Beginings and Feng Shui</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 19 Feb 2008 07:16:12 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Me and my roommate are interesting women. We find Discovery Channel cool, laugh at our interest in Mr. Darsey, and get into fits of cleaning and organization to make the garbage men angry. Tonight was no exception. Again by feeling the pull of our dream boards, light casting and the need to claim our future [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Me and my roommate are interesting women. We find Discovery Channel cool, laugh at our interest in Mr. Darsey, and get into fits of cleaning and organization to make the garbage men angry. Tonight was no exception. Again by feeling the pull of our dream boards, light casting and the need to claim our future we came to a realization the clutter (distraction/energy traps) in our apartment is keeping the good chi from doing it&#8217;s thing. A mad dash to increase the flow of energy to our prosperity and love corners and really I am just so happy to have the crap moved and out of the house so I can enjoy the energy I am putting into my claimed space.</p>
<p>Odd unexpected thing happened last night. I channeled Jeanette&#8217;s Mom as I was talking to Jeanette. It was good but her mother was crying and a bit upset and sending love Jeanette&#8217;s way. A grounding crystal and a glass of water was needed so I could calm down after. Freakish but cool that the Universe thinks I am ready for this sort of thing. This doesn&#8217;t happen often I think it has happened once before with my Mom but with grief I could be making my Mom up in my head. I don&#8217;t think so but who can prove such things. This time I felt a black woman&#8217;s presence and my mom was clearly not black.</p>
<p>I, jokingly, worry I will channel Genghis Khan at the grocery store and he will want to get his tomatoes faster than everyone else and cause a scene. LOL Kind of reminds me of Bill and Ted&#8217;s excellent adventure when they were at the mall. Joan of Arc and aerobics. It could happen LOL and monkeys may fly out of my butt.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>INFP and that explains a lot!</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 12 Feb 2008 09:10:58 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[A while back say in 2005 I came across the personality tests that help you see your personality and help you find a career. It assessed me as INFPs (Healer Idealists). Over the years I have struggled with my need to be motherly to others, protect myself from self serving people, as well as, find [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>A while back say in 2005 I came across the personality tests that help you see your personality and help you find a career. It assessed me as <a href="http://infp.blogsome.com/2008/02/09/infps-healer-idealists/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link: INFPs (Healer Idealists)">INFPs (Healer Idealists).  </a>Over the years I have struggled with my need to be motherly to others, protect myself from self serving people, as well as, find meaningful work. In 2005 I took this test during a time of great stress. My job was sucking the life out of me and my mom left the the good earth from a stroke rather quickly. This left me unable to fully grasp what the assessments were speaking of. Now in 2008 and after more than one struggle to find peace in work I found my print-outs of those assessments. I am not trying to be all high and mighty however, others have told me that I always have been a person of great caring, compassion, and patience with other&#8217;s dramas,  foibles, pain always feeling a connection to certain  people that seemed to need&#8230;  a person whom would listen, not judge and love or understand them in their time of need. All the times I would meet these people in grocery store lines, at work or a random calling for me to say a kind word to a stranger. A month or so ago I got a quick one question psychic reading about my path in life and he said without knowing me or my personality profile &#8211; If I find something to be passionate about in the healing arts, spiritual healing and such. That would be a great area to put my compassion to use. I am open to the possibility now that I may or may not do this for work as I do this so automatically with people but to get paid for it would be a bonus. Now my future goals include studying healing modalities like Reiki and other energy modalities as well as continuing my mothering love and counsel. Even at a party this week-end I was speaking to a girl I had never met said I should be a life coach.</p>
<p>PS • The <a href="http://www.unity.org">Unity</a> church has sparked my interest of late. They believe in the inclusion of all people and the power of your thinking. I think it is a another way to show people how to change their lives through positive affirmation of faith in God/Universal Source Energy, a name by any other name would smell as sweet, and how their thinking can help bring about profound changes in a person life.</p>
<p>I am moving toward the person I was born to be and I am loving it LOL</p>
<p>Other goals: to write more, to live more and to love more.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 24 Dec 2007 06:43:46 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[My aha moments sometimes come after a long study, an obsession of topic. This week has been no exception. Maybe in Sept or Oct a friend recommended the book, The 4-Hour Workweek by Tim Ferriss. I took the book out of the library. I like the 3 week deadline sometimes. I read it, it was [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>My aha moments sometimes come after a long study, an obsession of topic. This week has been no exception. Maybe in Sept or Oct a friend recommended the book, The <a href="http://fourhourworkweek.com/" title="The Four Hour Workweek" target="_blank">4-Hour Workweek</a> by Tim Ferriss. I took the book out of the library. I like the 3 week deadline sometimes. I read it, it was good, very good. It was easy to understand. The guy behind the book seemed interesting but at that time the information decided to leave my brain. Moving again and all that entails and my own self (fear) stopped me from moving on any of the tips suggested. I am known to do a few nonsensical things and this, among many, was be one of them. This month I was loading up my Google Reader found Tim&#8217;s Blog. I started to be rekindled by the information in his blog and others in the <a href="http://lifehacker.com/" title="lifehacker">lifehacker</a> family. I also in a magical way also acquired a crush on Tim. I am generally haven&#8217;t been attracted to blond men but his devilish grin, great smile and intellect makes Tim uber attractive. I have been obsessing by finding all media, pictures and reading as much about him and his ideas as possible.  Although in his book, Tim references how to find anyone you want to speak with in various ways, I myself am not going that route. I am chicken (Bahak, bad imitation of a chicken.) I am a little late for a bet he had with one of  his friends that he couldn&#8217;t outsource dating. I think he finished his experiment 20 dates happier and proved his friend wrong. I think the scenario is like hiring an Indian or Malaysian Yenta. I am hopeful to meet him in 2008 <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_wink.gif' alt=';)' class='wp-smiley' />  but above all I want to thank Tim for his inspiration helping me find joy in the things I do with my time.  The type of life we live, laughter with friends, personal adventures to grow and/or explore, and doing stuff you love at its core is what Tim&#8217;s ideals are about. Why do many of us put off what we enjoy or might enjoy in the hopes of experiencing it later in life. Especially and possibly when a whole lot of your juice or spark for living has dwindled. The fire still needs fuel people! Check out his book and don&#8217;t go stealing my man unless you are as awesome as he is. <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' /><br />
Here is an amazing <a href="http://www.gethappy.com/watchmore.html" title="More by Mark OSborne" target="_blank">short</a> film by Mark Osborne that portrays the fear I have about letting my spark die.  It is a beautiful 8 minutes that has made me shed a tear and has inspired me as well.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>Man has it been THAT Long?</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 25 May 2007 14:47:19 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Man am I am bad blogger? LOL I could say that I have been doing freelance graphic design in the meantime but that doesn&#8217;t quell the need for new or interesting information on spirituality or living life to its fullest. OK it is a gorgeous day today, warm and sunny not a cloud in the [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Man am I am bad blogger? LOL I could say that I have been doing freelance graphic design in the meantime but that doesn&#8217;t quell the need for new or interesting information on spirituality or living life to its fullest.</p>
<p>OK it is a gorgeous day today, warm and sunny not a cloud in the sky. I am trying to be less fearful in terms of change I like the status quo waaaay to much. I am thinking about a lot of things to help force me out of my comfort zone. Maybe moving to a younger, active environment, maybe becoming a dance teacher, join the circus, well maybe not the last one unless I get to become very bendy and work for <a href="http://www.cirquedusoleil.com" title="Cirque du soleil">Cirque</a>. I am getting off my butt and working out and learning how to cook real food. Learning to have discipline and setting goals and trying not to be afraid of failing, since its not the end of the world If I do. I am trying not to give up on my self just because it may be hard or I might be afraid. In what ways am I not living to my fullest potential? What if I did step out and did things that on the outside don&#8217;t scare me but on the inside make me want to be anti-social and never have to experience life or relationships or challenges. That&#8217;s all bunk cause I know that is the reason all of us are on Earth. We need to challenge oneself and be challenged by other people. I know I have grown but I could grow in a faster clip by changing it up a bit and really combating fears, prejudices, thoughts and feelings that are not serving me any longer. God wanted all of us to be in Love with the experience of knowing the IAM. Even Jesus had rough days, he asked for the burden to be taken from him but asked for God&#8217;s will to be done anyway. Buddha was in such anguish looking and experiencing suffering but followed the path ever humbly to reach a state where he would be connected to all things that wasn&#8217;t an easy road. These great teachers among others took baby and giant leaps toward living their lives. They are extraordinary examples. We can be like them if we Let Go, Let God and move past irrational fear and experience life to the fullest.</p>
<p>I am forward on making changes. I hope others challenge me to make sure I am continue to move and grow. Sometimes a good push or kick in the butt is what a lady needs!</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jen</p>
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		<title>Keeping it light!</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 27 Apr 2007 19:28:52 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I read that humor raises the energy or vibrations of people. However, humor that hurts or is sarcastic does not. It is funny, I am not normally sarcastic but at times I have been known to throw a sarcastic dagger now and again. Usually I realize that sometimes it is not taken lightly and/or misinterpreted [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I read that humor raises the energy or vibrations of people. However, humor that hurts or is sarcastic does not. It is funny, I am not normally sarcastic but at times I have been known to throw a sarcastic dagger now and again. Usually I realize that sometimes it is not taken lightly and/or misinterpreted or I did feel a certain way about a person and maybe wanted to dig at them in a humorous way. My aim is to make my humor less abrasive and more light and silly. Kids usually don&#8217;t do sarcasm but they are hilarious little people anyway.  I hope to make you smile and laugh along this journey of ours.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,<br />
Jennifer</p>
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		<title>Pope&#8217;s new limbo teaching for babies</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 26 Apr 2007 05:02:08 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Full article is from the Orlando Sentinel. I am starting off by stating at one time I was a full fledged, go to church every Sunday Catholic for a good time in my late teens into my early twenties. I still have a love of Rosary Beads, Jesus, pomp and circumstance and frankincense.Â I however, [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Full article is from the <a href="http://www.orlandosentinel.com/news/nationworld/sns-ap-vatican-limbo,0,2197619.story?track=rss" title="Report on Teaching Limbo">Orlando Sentinel.</a></p>
<p>I am starting off by stating at one time I was a full fledged, go to church every Sunday Catholic for a good time in my late teens into my early twenties. I still have a love of Rosary Beads, Jesus, pomp and circumstance and frankincense.Â  I however, for many sociological, moral, and personal reasons don&#8217;t believe in the dogma of the Church. So when I read this article about how the Pope wants the teaching of limbo to include the hope that God will give special dispensation for unbaptized babies going to hell. I wanted to laugh and Praise the Lord for real.</p>
<p>Additionally in the article the Rev. Richard McBrien, professor of theology at the University of Notre Dame, states &#8220;&#8230;.we&#8217;re left with only one option, namely, that everyone is born in the state of grace.&#8221;</p>
<p>Finally someone who speaks my language! My personal belief is that we are all apart of God, the Spirit or soul is in direct connection to God, Source, All That Is, The Universe ect, all of the time&#8230; To think God would throw anyone away especially, babies is another way to make people believe in an Unloving God and the connection to said is gone. To feel that for a simple thing like lack of baptism could keep one from God&#8217;s love is absurd. The ego and ideas of self disapproval, unworthiness and just plain false information separates us from God and feelings of Unconditional Love that is in constant flow to everyone all the time. Many just haven&#8217;t tuned in or the haven&#8217;t let go of old conditioning.</p>
<p>The world would be a calmer and more peaceful and cooperative place if everyone KNEW and BELIEVED in Unconditional Love.</p>
<p>Think of the love you would show yourself and others if that channel was clear. Wouldn&#8217;t you treat your body better? Wouldn&#8217;t you say things more sweetly? Wouldn&#8217;t you we more grateful and want to express Godness and Goodness everyday? Wouldn&#8217;t you have faith in the process and journey of living?<br />
I hope everyone gives themselves a Big Hug and have learned that God Truly Loves You. The energy of the Highest Vibration is Love and by being loving and compassionate to everyone and everythingÂ  you are loving God and raising the vibration in the world.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jennifer</p>
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		<title>Books Currently on rotation right now</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 26 Apr 2007 04:27:25 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Remembering the Future -Colette Baron-Reid Trust Your Vibes &#8211; Sonia Choquette The Edgar Cayce Handbook for Creating Your Future-Thurston, PH. D. and Fazel Jesus and The Essenes- Dolores Cannon You Are Psychic-Debra Lynne Katz And a wonderful book I am reading again God is a Verb, Kabbalah and the practice of mystical Judaism-Rabbi David A. [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Remembering the Future -<span class="nametext">Colette Baron-Reid</span></p>
<p>Trust Your Vibes &#8211; Sonia Choquette</p>
<p>The Edgar Cayce Handbook for Creating Your Future-Thurston, PH. D. and Fazel<br />
Jesus and The Essenes- Dolores Cannon</p>
<p>You Are Psychic-Debra Lynne Katz</p>
<p>And a wonderful book I am reading again God is a Verb, Kabbalah and the practice of mystical Judaism-Rabbi David A. Cooper</p>
<p>I have to say that I jump often when reading as if I need to rest a bit on one topic or author but I read rather quickly when it comes to these topics because I enjoy and soak up and then pray and think about what I have read. I love, love, love learning in this arena.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jennifer</p>
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		<title>Endless Love :)</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 11 Apr 2007 04:28:53 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Endless Love! I am not talking about the Lionel Richie song. Although every time I say the words in my head the tune comes to mind. I am posing about Endless Love because I saw a bumper sticker that I that said Endless War with endless crossed out so it to say End this War. [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Endless Love! I am not talking about the Lionel Richie song. Although every time I say the words in my head the tune comes to mind. I am posing about Endless Love because I saw a bumper sticker that I that said Endless War with endless crossed out so it to say End this War. This got me thinking about turning the bumper sticker to say Endless Love!</p>
<p>One of the great laws of the universe  is You get what you focus on. When you think about something (especially with strong feeling) like attracts like. I am always up for a funny or thoughtful anecdote on a cars rear <img src='http://spiritualendeavor.com/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif' alt=':)' class='wp-smiley' />  but this sign got me thinking about a well known story about Mother Teresa&#8211;now stay with me. <a href="http://nobelprize.org/nobel_prizes/peace/laureates/1979/teresa-bio.html" title="Mother Teresa info">Mother Teresa</a> was asked to attend an anti-war rally. She said no but said if there is a Peace rally she would be on board. She knew the universal law. She didn&#8217;t want more war, she wanted more Peace. She was a fine example of teaching the path to the evolution of the soul and us here on this wonderful blue planet.  I would say if you want more good stuff (love, peace) you need to focus on what is loving and peaceful in your life first and that will have a domino effect. That doesn&#8217;t mean lie to yourself but change your thinking to the more positive higher thought. For example: say you fell and broke your leg, don&#8217;t pretend and say well all is right I don&#8217;t feel pain and I am healthy. Get yourself to a doctor stat. What it means is to honor the feelings you are having whatever they are (sadness, frustration, worry, pain) then let go of them don&#8217;t focus on them for hours, days, weeks or years. Focus on the good stuff- I am healing and healthy. I am breathing and now that that is over let me have a laugh with my friends or with myself. Focus on the good stuff for days and weeks and let the not so good stuff roll off your back. If the bad stuff keeps coming up in your head, say to your self ok I accept that feeling or thought now and reach for a happy, positive thought. Say to the negative junk I gave you your time now its Feeling Good&#8217;s turn.</p>
<p>I hope you all feel the Endless Love I am sending you and Hope you have a joyful and fun day.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,<br />
Jennifer</p>
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		<title>Lack of Zest for Life a Sin or Just How we Roll?</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 10 Apr 2007 03:37:41 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Recently I read a few articles pointing to the fact the U.S., by mental health stats, is the most depressed nation of people in the world. Could this be? I say absolutely! We live in a society that has many layers just like there are many layers to people. From the outside and by many [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Recently I read a few articles pointing to the fact <span style="font-weight: bold">the U.S.</span>, by <a href="http://www.forbes.com/forbeslife/health/2007/02/15/depression-world-rate-forbeslife-cx_avd_0216depressed.html?partner=rss" title="How Depressed is Your Country?" target="_blank">mental health stats,</a> is the <span style="font-weight: bold">most depressed nation of people in the world.</span> Could this be? I say absolutely! We live in a society that has many layers just like there are many layers to people. From the outside and by many standards the U.S. is a glorious place to live on earth. Wide open spaces, freedoms of choice of thought, action, deed, will and the responsibility there of. We have many blessings on a national and also very local level within our own worlds. I have never been outside of the U.S. yet but from what I can feel it seems the more simply people live, living with community that there is love and in turn joy. This simplicity maybe by choice or by financial decree. I also think many Americans, I myself included, have the so called &#8220;luxury&#8221; to wallow in self pity. This is not to say mental illness is all self pity. There can be medical reasons for depression and various forms of mental illness but I speak of a different illness that has creep-ed in everybody&#8217;s psyche at one point or another in their lives. The kind of party that no one really likes to go to. The pity party. But this can turn into Depression. This dis-ease is of rotten fruit that is picked by not taking stock at all the wonderful things in life. As small as  breathing (thats way more than a mini blessing). In the U.S. we have the true luxury, if we choose to do the hard work, to change our circumstances by focus and action in the direction of hope instead of lack and despair. This includes not living Life, as hard as it can be at times, with Zest and Vigor and Thanksgiving for the opportunities granted as a human being.  I personally am striving everyday to be Thankful for at least one thing, that one things always leads to more things that are blessings within my own little world and in turn helps me see all the Good in the world as a whole.  I am thankful for all of you who read this and share your thanksgiving with others.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,</p>
<p>Jennifer</p>
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		<title>Scaredy Cat&#8230;</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 10 Apr 2007 03:03:40 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Sometimes when things feel very big they can feel scary. For instance, this website for teaching and learning and guidance. I haven&#8217;t been writing and I could list a number of excuses but the biggest is fear. From a logical point there is nothing to fear on putting information and advice and interests of spirit [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Sometimes when things feel very big they can feel scary. For instance, this website for teaching and learning and guidance. I haven&#8217;t been writing and I could list a number of excuses but the biggest is fear. From a logical point there is nothing to fear on putting information and advice and interests of spirit on to the web. My soul actually a number of times has gotten me to write a few pages on paper but for some reason I was holding back on writing here. The BIGness of this and my fear seems to be a lack of faith which I will be ending by being like the advertisment by Nike and &#8220;Just Do It!&#8221; That is the only way to conquer the beast known as fear.  Additionally, I sometimes have a perfectionist problem. For example: if this site is not the perfect layout, or circumstances like my dishes are cleaned or position of the Sun is at the wrong angle (joking) that I tend to have a hard time starting things that are meaningful to me because of the fear of not being perfect. My Spirit Soul Lesson for today is obviously &#8211; Perfection is God and the Universe that created me. I am evolving, growing and becoming more everyday. I do not have to try. I only need to be and that is Perfect enough. Besides attempting to be perfect and scared is a waste of Good God Energy. I could do something wonderful with the extra time not fretting. Like sending loving thoughts to others, playing with my cat and loving myself a little more. So here we go&#8230; I hope you enjoy the journey with me.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs,</p>
<p>Jennifer</p>
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		<title>Hello world!</title>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 30 Nov -0001 00:00:00 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Jennifer</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I am so happy and elated to be able to be of service to anyone looking for spiritual and practical advice. I can be your best friend who will listen to you and give you advice and you can take what you like and leave the rest. If you want to learn more about me [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I am so happy and elated to be able to be of service to anyone looking for spiritual and practical advice. I can be your best friend who will listen to you and give you advice and you can take what you like and leave the rest. If you want to learn more about me and why I want to be of service, an ear and a guiding light for spiritual and personal enlightenment please look at the <a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/?page_id=2" title="about">about</a> page.</p>
<p>Respect is a premium here and request you look at the <a href="http://spiritualendeavor.com/?page_id=3" title="directions">directions</a> page on what I mean.</p>
<p>Love and Hugs</p>
<p>Jennifer</p>
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