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Noticed much?

Only one person has ever told me he loved me, and then a week or so later he broke up with me. Does that count? LOL It was long ago and it could be troubling if I didn’t think that I was the cat’s pajamas. I don’t always think of myself so highly but I [...]

Cha-cha changes and the Many Faces of Jen in Grey.

It’s amazing how time flies. I remember when I was in high school wanting to marry my then love and have like 6 kids, I saw the world as very black and white. Then I grew older, and slightly more grey etched into my view when more and more people (including me, much to my [...]

Self-Preservation and the Art of Vulnerability

Most of us have the instinct of fight or flight. We come with a built-in system. If things aren’t feeling too good, we want to run away in case some tiger will eat us. When it comes to human relationships, this instinct comes out when we are in a super state of joy, insecurity, anger, [...]

Solar Destiny

This weekend the stars and life have got me really creative, in various moods & emotions and thinking about what destiny has in store for me. I have a dualistic belief that some things in your life are predestined and some things are of choice. Maybe depending on the day, it may all seem very self-serving [...]

Randy Pausch, an Extraordinary Man, Has Passed Today.

Good-bye to one of the sweetest souls, Randy Pausch! Many may know him from his last lecture. This wonderful computer nerd who has touched so many has died today of complications from pancreatic cancer. Even though I never met Mr. Pausch in person, I think all of us were touched by his selfless devotion to [...]

Judgment while Making Fiends, Plus a Video

Aries – Monday – 6/16/2008 – Soul Horoscopes
Coming back to life after a power struggle within myself. Looks like things are on the upswing as my mood is back to enthusiastic levels again. I find life with its ebbs and flows reminds me about my personal philosophies in addition to A: a horoscope and B: [...]

My Week of Unexpected Humility

This week has been very interesting and humbling. I am still looking for work, income, or a way to make money from my poetry or creative endeavors. Sold my car to a very wonderful family in Jersey City. I even hope to continue a friendship with these very interesting people. Got great tips about traveling [...]

Manipulation Isn’t Sexy

Many of us people pleasers, or people who seek the love of others, use unconscious manipulation to try to get what we seek. This manipulation for the average person is under the radar and usually goes unnoticed. It is oh so sexy. Not!
Now I am not talking about extreme cases like that of a serial [...]

Forgiveness, Psst . . . It’s Not for Them

We all have raised boo-boos when it comes to forgiveness. We have felt hurt, betrayed, unloved, uncared for—blah, blah, blah. Really we all have wounds; some seem deeper than others, some are made deeper by the whining about them. Through time and counseling we can still hold on to the anger, sadness, and victim mentality; [...]

I promise to live more . . .

Next time I will have a lighter topic but I was floored moments ago as my friend on myspace and his fascination with death and my own morbid curiosity about a story on the gardian.co.uk about Life before Death called to me. The fact my mom has been “dead” for 3 years this summer brought [...]