Spiritual Endeavor

Me and my roommate are interesting women. We find Discovery Channel cool, laugh at our interest in Mr. Darsey, and get into fits of cleaning and organization to make the garbage men angry. Tonight was no exception. Again by feeling the pull of our dream boards, light casting and the need to claim our future we came to a realization the clutter (distraction/energy traps) in our apartment is keeping the good chi from doing it’s thing. A mad dash to increase the flow of energy to our prosperity and love corners and really I am just so happy to have the crap moved and out of the house so I can enjoy the energy I am putting into my claimed space.

Odd unexpected thing happened last night. I channeled Jeanette’s Mom as I was talking to Jeanette. It was good but her mother was crying and a bit upset and sending love Jeanette’s way. A grounding crystal and a glass of water was needed so I could calm down after. Freakish but cool that the Universe thinks I am ready for this sort of thing. This doesn’t happen often I think it has happened once before with my Mom but with grief I could be making my Mom up in my head. I don’t think so but who can prove such things. This time I felt a black woman’s presence and my mom was clearly not black.

I, jokingly, worry I will channel Genghis Khan at the grocery store and he will want to get his tomatoes faster than everyone else and cause a scene. LOL Kind of reminds me of Bill and Ted’s excellent adventure when they were at the mall. Joan of Arc and aerobics. It could happen LOL and monkeys may fly out of my butt.

Love and Hugs

Jen

This week/week-end has been pretty fab I have to say. It’s a late hour the way I like it. It’s a good time for reflection without life’s noises.

This week was great- Status of greatness: I got awesome chocolates from a cute, intelligent and passionate guy, who I have a school girl crush on. It’s a bit romantic to get a Valentine from a person you have never met. Even though it was a contest of sorts -my wit, humor and sex appeal aided, I gather, to gaining the sweet gesture. Nice!!! I will have to get my Go Go Yubari outfit from the back of my closet to show off my school girl uniform.

I worked in the city this past week. Easy graphic job that paid nicely for 2 and a half days work. Not too shabby.

I went out with my roommate and good friend Jeanette, Friday night. We went to a local dance place to gt our dance on and celebrating our woman hood. Saw an old male acquaintance. He is very good-looking but he is a player to the 10th power. He tried kissing me, an ego boost maybe but he was not signaled for take off. I wasn’t flirting just being friendly – there is a difference! From me you can tell by the way I smile, my coyness, shyness or balls out straight forwardness whether or not I am interested. No signal from my part but c’est la vie. It’s a nice reminder that I am attractive even when I am not back into my hot pants yet. Soon, Soon!

Finally, even though with fuzzy head, I am looking toward my future. What I want and how I will attain it. A little help from the universe and some gusto. I can get bogged down by all the shiny in the world. This oyster of a world can have so much to do and be and love that I have to remember to prioritize as there are other days, weeks, months where the shiny can be claimed. Not all at once or all the time. Somethings are nice all at once. Hugging, kissing, and walking hand in hand with someone special while visiting a exotic place or going to Trader Joe’s. Reading a book while your honey just sitting reading his book an occasional sexy glance or oh my check this out moment. Other shiny things like getting a passport or working out can be solo and probably done not simultaneously. I am not walking to the nearest processing center which is about 250 miles away. LOL

So all in all, a great week of moving forward, catching some romance and gaining focus.

Love and Hugs

Jen

A while back say in 2005 I came across the personality tests that help you see your personality and help you find a career. It assessed me as INFPs (Healer Idealists). Over the years I have struggled with my need to be motherly to others, protect myself from self serving people, as well as, find meaningful work. In 2005 I took this test during a time of great stress. My job was sucking the life out of me and my mom left the the good earth from a stroke rather quickly. This left me unable to fully grasp what the assessments were speaking of. Now in 2008 and after more than one struggle to find peace in work I found my print-outs of those assessments. I am not trying to be all high and mighty however, others have told me that I always have been a person of great caring, compassion, and patience with other’s dramas, foibles, pain always feeling a connection to certain people that seemed to need… a person whom would listen, not judge and love or understand them in their time of need. All the times I would meet these people in grocery store lines, at work or a random calling for me to say a kind word to a stranger. A month or so ago I got a quick one question psychic reading about my path in life and he said without knowing me or my personality profile – If I find something to be passionate about in the healing arts, spiritual healing and such. That would be a great area to put my compassion to use. I am open to the possibility now that I may or may not do this for work as I do this so automatically with people but to get paid for it would be a bonus. Now my future goals include studying healing modalities like Reiki and other energy modalities as well as continuing my mothering love and counsel. Even at a party this week-end I was speaking to a girl I had never met said I should be a life coach.

PS • The Unity church has sparked my interest of late. They believe in the inclusion of all people and the power of your thinking. I think it is a another way to show people how to change their lives through positive affirmation of faith in God/Universal Source Energy, a name by any other name would smell as sweet, and how their thinking can help bring about profound changes in a person life.

I am moving toward the person I was born to be and I am loving it LOL

Other goals: to write more, to live more and to love more.

Love and Hugs

Jen