Are you searching for the holy grail of weight loss?
Posted by Jennifer | Posted in Health, Life: The game | Posted on 07-05-2007
Tags: fat kid, Health, instability, life lessons, moving, weight loss
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I have struggled with my weight from the time I was in 5th or 6th grade. I guess I was 11 or 12 as puberty was rearing its ugly head. I noticed I had a problem in 6th grade. During much of my childhood there was a lot of instability, countless moves, poverty and a short time being homeless. When me and my Mom landed where my 20 year old brother was living I learned to cope with the constant changes with food. I would tell myself that I could eat a whole bag of BBQ potato chips without gaining weight. Needless to say I was lying to myself. As I got older I never really put together the idea that I was eating for comfort, to satiate stability, to push down pain, anger, or sadness. It is amazing when you aren’t being truthful to yourself how much can slip away from you in your life. In high school, after I met some very active older friends I lost quite a lot of weight. I became thinner and maybe a tad healthier however MickyD’s after a night of dancing doesn’t seem healthy now! LOL
I have made excuses and with not dealing with myself and my emotions from the past I still continue to struggle with getting to a healthy state of being in mind and body. I am doing better in the mental health department but the body, old patterns and making the final decision to be healthy is still an on going process. I am a work in progress that is for sure! I found a blog today that was inspiring to me. It is called Secrets of a Former Fat Girl.
It is about a real woman who lost 70lbs and kept it off for more than 20 years. She realized it wasn’t just about what she ate or how much she exercised, even though that was a huge part. It was about breaking through fear of change, getting out of her comfort zone, changing emotional habits and recognizing the healing she needed to do within herself.
To me this is true spiritual growth, being able to move out of ones comfort zone into healing of personal fears, judgments and behaviors. I urge anyone who feels unhealthy in body to check out her blog and to check in with yourself to see how you deal with your emotions. It could be any way you self medicate-cigarettes, food, drugs, alcohol, starvation and many others. We all can learn to love ourselves more by being more thoughtful on why we do what we do and learning to take baby steps towards any goal we chose.
I wish you all love, success and support in all the areas of your life.
Love and Hugs,
Jennifer
